Tum Mere Ho

Outburst

Author's pov

Taking the baby steps shiva went to the washroom , he didn't knew why but he was feeling weak not physically ,but emotionally weak..
Thought he has always came as a strong person, who doesn't give a thought about someone's opinion about him and neither does he believed in showing of his emotions openly..
But there were times when he felt weak,
Emotionally weak , there were time when he wanted to burst out but he couldn't, and that the reason most of his angry was taken out on raavi..
She being the first person to fight with him , always provoked him too take his anger out on..
He knew he sometime did wrong by fighting with her , but he couldn't help it the major reason was because if his mami..

With these thoughts he came out of the washroom and again took baby steps to the bed , he didn't see raavi standing there near the bed looking at his medicine when he walked slowly and bumped into her..
when raavi held him and Turned around resulting them to fall on the bed with shiva undernith her...

They shared an eye lock , silently looking at each other..
When raavi spoke
Raavi: dekh ke chal na ,

Shiva : dhayan nhi tha

Raavi: toh dhayan kaha tha

Shiva: tujhe usse kya , aapne kaam se kaam rakh ,

Raavi (with irritation): kaam se hi kaam rakh rhi ho aur filal kaam tera dhayan rakhna ha

Shiva (angrily): haa toh mat rakh , maine nhi bola ha rakhne ko aai bada..
Suna kisko rakhi ha , maine kaha tha kya ki rakh mera dhayan.

Raavi: nhi tune nhi kaha tha pr kya ha na main insan hu teri tarha gawar nhi hu jo kisi ko takhleef main chod de ya kisi ko takhleef main dekh ke khush ho

Shiva : ye mami ki behen ki beti , zayada bol rahi ha..

Raavi: kyu sach karva lg rha ha..

Shiva : zyada sach ka path mat padha , samjhi. Teri tarha jhoothi care nhi krta main kisi ki

Raavi: tu toh kisi ko care hi nhi krta ha shiva aur tujhse umeed bhi kya ki ja sakti hai care krne ke liye bhi seene main dil hona zaroori ha shiva , pr tere pass toh ha hi nhi dil..
Tu toh patthar ha patthar.. logo ko dukhi dekh ke khush hota hai , unka Sapna tootta dekh ke sukoon milta hai tujhe..

Shiva : mujhe jis se bhi sukoon mile tujhe kya , aur haa mere seene main dil ha ya patthar tujhe sochne ki zaroorat nhi ha..
With that shiva pushed her and got up..
Raavi too got up , she didn't know why but she wanted to pick up a fight with him she wanted to have a fight because she wanted her heart to be proven wrong and more than that she wanted to push the feelings she was developing for him..
So she took a deep breath because she knew what she was going to say further will definitely hurt him and make him fight with her..

Raavi: kyu na sochu, jaisi bhi sahi shaadi hui ha na meri Terese ..
Pta nhi dhara di ne kya soch ke meri shaadi tujh jaise ,zahil ,gawar ,aur ghatiya aadami se karwai ha , kya sujh rha ha unhe , meri zindagi barbad kr di un hone , sb jante ha ki tu kitni nafrat krta ha mujhse aur tb bhi meri shaadi hui tujhse , bht aacha mauka mil gaya ha na tujhe aapna badla nikal....

Raavi was not able to continue as shiva pulled her towards him..
For the first time in her life raavi Saw hurt in Shiva's eyes ..
She felt guilty because she knew this will hurt him..

Shiva on the other hand didn't know why but these words hurted him a lot , it was not that he was listening to it for the first time , people use to call him many things but it never mattered to him , but with raavi it hurted him a lot , but what he didn't knew was it was visible in his eyes and raavi saw it...

Shiva: haa hu main zahil, gawar , ghatiya sb kuch hu , krta hu tujhse nafrat aur hamesha karunga pr ek baat yaad rakh tujhse badla lene ke liye nhi ki ha maine ye shaadi , dhara bhabhi ke liye ki ha..
Koi Shaukh nhi tha tujhse shaadi krne ka aur agar itni hi takhleef ha toh aane de sbko bol dunga main ki nhi rhna hume saath main , thod denge ye rishta..

As soon as shiva said this ,raavi felt like someone has stabbed her heart , she didn't know why but the thought of going away was not being liked by her..

Shiva left raavi and started moving toward the door when raavi pulled him to her.

Raavi: kya kaha tune , rishta tod denge , itna asan ha na tere liye bol dena ki tod denge rishta , abhi abhi kaha na ki dhara di ke khene pe ye shaadi ki ha tune toh aise hi tod dega toh unhe bura nhi lagega..
Aur kya itna asan ha tum dono bhai ke liye rishta tod dena , dev ne bhi tod diya tu bhi tod de , main insaan thodi hu main toh katputli hu , mujh main feelings thodi ha jo mujhe bura lagega..
Itna time tk dev ne ullu banaya ab tu bhi bana aur ek din chod dena , sb toh chod hi dete ha, maa - papa , dev , sb ne chod diya tu bhi chod de kyu ha tu aabhi tk yaha , sbke aane ka wait kyu kr rha ha chal aabhi maa ke pass chalte ha aur tod dete haa ye rishta..
Sb ne khilauna samajh ke rakh diya ha , ek tu ha jo bachpan se bas Dushmani nikale ja rha ha aur ek dev tha jisse kabhi himmat nhi hui sach bolne ki,
Main bhi insaan hu mujhe bhi takhleef hoti hai .

Raavi shouted looked angrily at him..

Shiva who stood there was dumbstruck as to what made her brust like this ,  he could see pain in her eyes , before he could say anything raavi contined

Raavi: bachpan se ek hi Sapna dekha tha ki dev se shaadi karu , jb se hosh sambhala ha bas usse se shaadi ke sapne dekhe ha ussi se pyaar kiya ha ,
Kaha maine socha tha ki dev se shaadi krke is ghar main aaoungi , aur kaha tujhse shaadi hui meri tujhse shiva tujhse jisne aaj tk ek mauka nhi choda ha mujhse ladne ka , bachpan se leke aaj tk bas ladta aaya ha ,nafrat krta aaya ha , kabhi truck ke samne khada kr deta ha kabhi rula deta hai bata na kya bigada hai maine tera kyu krta ha tu itni nafrat mujhse shiva kyu.
Kyu koi mujhse pyaar nhi krta , jis se maine pyaar kiya usne kabhi mujhse pyaar nhi kiya ha aur main us insaan ke saath shaadi ke bandhan main bandh chuki hu jo sirf mujhse nafrat krta ha..KYU HO RHA HA MERE SAATH YE , KYU , KYU TU KRTA HA MUJHSE NAFRAT , KYU SHIVA KYUUU..

Raavi was punching shiva , on his chest while he stood there like a statute taking all her punches..
The only thing shiva could conclude from her outbrust was that she still loved dev and he dosen't know why but he didn't liked that thought..
He looked at raavi who was still punching him and when she couldn't take it anymore she fell on her knees , shiva quickly held her and hugged her , while he thought that raavi will push him back , she did the opposite and hugged him like her life depended on him..
She cried all her heart , she didn't know why but the thought of him going away breaking their marriage pulled the trigger of the emotions and she brust out..
She took out everything that was inside her from their fight to Dev's rejection everything..

Shiva hugged her tightly thought he was feeling weak but he had to focus on her right now , so he smoothly picked raavi in bridal style and took her to the bed all the while keeping his eyes on her while she was silently crying with her eyes closed..

He gently put her in the bed and looked at her..

Raavi's pov
I opened my eyes when I felt shiva put on the bed, the moment I opened my eyes it got locked with his , and i felt shiver ran through me ,his eyes were red and potrated hate..
Whom will he hate , its obviously me , no matter what he will always hate me
It was so stupid of me to think that he will understand me and help me but what I forgot was the fact that shiva has always hated me , just because he married me for dhara di dosen't mean he will change his feelings he has always hated me and will always hate me..

So why do I care, I am not going to be weak again..I will not show him that he is effecting me I will stand infront of him strongly..
If he hates me I can hate him as well

The End

So where do you think this will take them..
And what do you think does raavi still loves dev or this time shiva was wrong in assuming things

Also I really want to thank everyone of you who are taking out time to read the story and comment..
It means a lot So thank you everyone
And hope you will enjoy the upcoming chapter ...
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