A New Avenger

Chapter 61

How do you feel about me adding Bucky and Stephen Strange? If you want me to add anyone else, let me know and they will appear. Enjoy,

P.S I'm annoying the shit out of my family because I won't shut up about Loki. They may hate me in two days time but that's fine. I'll have the Loki series. 

Word count: 1064

Harpers POV

Once I had calmed down my parents took me to the kitchen for breakfast. I nibbled at the pancakes but everything tasted bland and it was horrible trying to swallow anything. Even drinking made me gag. "I'm done," I said and pushed the barely touched plate of food back towards them.

"But you ate two bites. Are you sure you can't eat anymore?" Clint asked and I nodded. He sighed softly and then started cleaning up the already immaculate kitchen. I rested my head in my hands and tried to keep my eyes open as every time they closed I got a horrible image of my dying Loki. It was the same image every time: Loki with glazed over eyes and pale skin laying in a puddle of his blood, alone. It was a form of torture. 

"Harper!" Yelled little Jasper as he ran into the room. I put on a fake smile so he didn't think anything was wrong. "Was they fun?" He asked in all the wrong grammar but I knew what he meant. 

"Yeah. The little girl Lila is a lot like you. I think you'll like her." I said and Jasper sat next to me at the kitchen bench. I told Jasper about what Lila and I did, the toys she had. I described the house for him and the big field. He seemed very intrigued and wanted to meet them for himself. "Maybe one day you will meet them," I said and fake smiled again. Jasper smiled and hopped off his chair to go play.

"Harper, are you alright?" Clint asked and I shook my head. 

"I'm so tired but I can't sleep because every time I close my eyes I see him. I see my Loki dying alone on the floor." I said and he hugged me. I didn't push him away but I didn't embrace him back. I just sat there like a rock as Clint hugged me. I felt so lonely, so depressed and yet so mad. I sniffled softly as another wave of grief hit me and I could no longer control my emotions. I pushed Clint away and got off the chair and ran to my room. I locked the door and dove onto my bed and cried. 

Time Jump 

A few days passed of me getting about an hours sleep each night and being woken up by a nightmare of my dead Loki. Nothing was stopping the horrible dreams. I couldn't eat, sleep or do anything to help my body function because I was just so tired and weak. My parents begged me to eat but I refused because I felt like vomiting whenever I tried to eat or drink. Nobody came into my room because I refused to unlock the door. Even Jarvis wasn't allowed to open it for them. I had made him promise. 

Clearly, Jarvis thought breaking the promise was what needed to be done because that's what he did. I pulled my blanket over my body and I snuggled into Sol. I heard a lock click and my door slowly swung open but I didn't turn around. I didn't care who it was or why they were in my room.  

"Harper, you alright?" I heard someone say but I didn't move, speak or give any sign that I heard them. Maybe if I stay quiet they will leave me alone. I thought but they didn't leave. I felt a weight on the end of my bed. "Your parents and Jasper are worried about you. We all are." They said but I didn't move. "Harper, you need to go outside. You need fresh air. You need food. You need sleep. You need social interaction. Please, for your own sake and the others, leave your room." they said and I looked at them. 

"Loki?" I asked and sat up properly to look at him better. "Oh my, LOKI! Your alive?" I asked and clambered over the bed and I went to hug Loki but my hands went through him. 

"I'm not here. This is your version of me in your head. Please listen to yourself and go outside your room." He said and I shook my head. 

"No, I can't. I need you back!" I yelled and tried to hug him again but it didn't work. I still couldn't touch him. 

"You don't need me." He said and more red hot tears burnt my face. "Leave your room. Please, for me." He said then everything disappeared. 

"LOKI!" I screamed and curled into a ball on the edge of my bed. I picked up the nearest object, which happened to be my pillow, and chucked it across the room. It took me a moment to calm down and when I did I walked to my bedroom door. I put my hand on the door lock and slowly turned it to unlock the door. I opened the door and tentatively stepped out of my room. My bare feet hit the cold floor and I shuddered softly. 

I walked down the hall as silent as a mouse and towards the kitchen. I peaked my head in to see my mother sitting at the bench, her head in her hands and a sandwich on a plate in front of her. I left horrible because she looked like she couldn't eat or sleep either. "Mum?" I asked as I walked into the kitchen fully. 

She looked up and saw me. She smiled and came over to me so I met her halfway. We hugged. I heard other peoples footsteps and soon I felt more and more arms wrap around us. "What happened?" Asked my mum who was pushing everyone away so we could breathe.

"Loki won't want me to be alone," I said and I could tell they were confused but I didn't want to say anything. They didn't ask me anything else and instead, they started to treat me like I was human once again. Steve offered me food, my parents offered me comfort and Bruce offered me any physical or mental help. Tony gave me a soft smile. Even newer members of the Avengers, like Bucky and Stephen Strange, showed me compassion and understanding.