Its been a week since my solo performance and man has my anxiety sky rocketed. I spoke to Namjoon-hyung about it and he asked if I'm on medication for it. Which I explained its the one medication I'm not on. Yep. I have a bag full of meds and the one issue I need meds for most... I don't have meds for. Well as of yet. I'm currently sat in the waiting room of my GP waiting to discuss my 'issues' I was due an appointment anyways to check on my weight gaining process. I don't remember whether I mentioned it before but due to the 'trauma' my uncle put me through I developed not only depression but also an eating disorder. So, I come to the GP once every two to three months for a check up. It used to be more regular but since it's been a while It hasn't been as much. Eventually I don't believe I'll need to even go to these check ups. That's what my goal is. Well my goal other then being a musician.
"Kim Jason. Come to room 48 on floor 5 left corridor please. I repeat Kim Jason please come to room 48 on floor 5 left corridor. Mr Micheals is ready for your appointment. Thank you" the lady at the reception announced on the speaker in a dull bored tone.
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Mr Micheals prescribed me some medication to help calm my anxiety done as well as more meds for my anorexia and depression. Yes I'm on meds due to my anorexia. I now have to take tablets which help my body absorb food. Due to the damage I have done to my body I can't absorb food like I used to be able to. I actually have damaged my stomach so much that my stomach is particularly paralysed. I'm lucky that right now I don't need a feeding tube since my medication seems to be working but if for any reason it stops then I need to go to hospital right away.
Anyways I better ring one of the boys for a lift or call an uber if they're busy.
I took out my phone and rang the first number I saw which happened to be Tae-hyung. He answered right away.
"Hey, what's up?"
"Oh, hey yh.. uh .. need a lift if that's okay. If-i-if your busy that's fine!"
"Nah, I'm free. Where are you? I'll come pick you up now."
"I'm at hopes surgery"
"Okay, I'm on my way. Be there in 10"
I hung up and sighed in relief.
Well guess I have to wait now.
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BTS x Male 8th Member
FanfictionA story of friendship, trust and mental health. Kim Jason is a new member of BTS. He's been working for Bighit for years but was chosen to debut with a new group after 1 year of training. The group he was supposed to have joined didn't make the debu...
