Lingering Life ✔️

Chapter 27

Walk properly, Talk politely
Don't do this and don't do that
Should do this and should do that
Here you go
Follow the manual
To live a perfect life
You need the instructions
Your life is perfect if others think its perfect
Impression is really important
Be mindful of what others think of you
Most importantly
Don't forget to smile
Thats what I was told all my life
My life that was not mine
Before taking every step
I had to ask for approval
I lived to fulfil others expectations
Every single step on the way
I gave a part of myself to others
Not knowing that I myself was becoming empty
My emotions that were not mine
Feelings that were not real
I expressed them as if I was happy
I long forgot what being happy meant
I started living other's life
I wanted their love
Not knowing that I could give love as well
I wanted to be useful
I wanted them to like me
Like a version of me that was molded by others
My self that was not me
Living for others
Became suffocating
I became perfect in the eyes of others
But I lost myself in the process
Behind the eyes, my soul begged me to come back
Because I had travelled too far away following the path they gave me
Scrolling through others lives
I worked on making my image better
I cared about how others felt
But not once did I ask myself the same question
Ignoring my self for so long
My soul and body couldn't take it any more
Abandoned and feeling lonely
They couldn't hold back
And one day "I" broke down
I who I knew once but forgot during the process
I who was the real me
Had emotions that were mine
Which were now being expressed
After years of being suppressed
behind these walls
I did not know why the tears won't stop
But I knew at this moment I wanted to cry my heart out
My tired self wanted to take a break
And this was it's way of protesting
Telling me to stop hurting myself
Thats when all the scars I hid through makeup were finally showing
The pain I had become numb to was starting to ache
If only I had given even a slightest portion of love to myself that I gave to others
Then I wouldn't be like this way today
I never knew this is what it means to truly feel
That one day I had enough
Cutting off the binds
I ran without looking at others
I had love but this time it was for my self
My emotions, my feelings, my dreams
My life was now mine
Because I realised how beautiful I am
I never knew the hidden me was shining so brightly
The love I wanted
I wont ask it from others
Because I'll love my own self
           ————-Melody_Alyward

She finally realised that what she needed to do all along was to love herself! ❤️
Do you guys also love yourself? Being happy for you is what you should focus on. Your happiness should never depend on others. It's YOUR life, YOU are living it, YOU are feeling it which is why YOU should enjoy it. Love yourself! 🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️