𝗔𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 -𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖲𝖺𝗇-

•6•

With every day passing by, I was almost visiting Wooyoung. Well...not exactly everyday as he wanted me to, but still

I gave him Christmas present but for New Year,I spent it with Jongho. We had lots of fun together just like we always did for the past 15 years

I would come every third day or for weekends. He didn't like that because our visit time was limited to 30 minutes only. He would get fuzzy every time I had to go,even nurses had to pull him away

He was showing signs of improvement,I was happy about that, though my mind was still in debate. It felt so cruel to be with him even if I was losing feelings. All my words felt like fake lies, everything I've said to him and what felt like a stone on my heart were like a huge lie

Because it was a lie

It hurt me so much, the lump in my throat was huge whenever I was with him,smiling next to him while my heart was crying

I didn't have strength to tell him about how I feel about this. It took me so long to get over him and yet everything fell in water that night I were with him

Jongho waited me outside when I got out of the center

"How did it go?"

I took a deep breath, inhaling fresh spring air. "As usual,you know.."

"I understand. But..are you ready to end things?"

I frowned frustrated. We sat down on the bench few meters from the center,him holding my hand while I looked around, tears in my eyes.

"I don't know, it's not easy. I know it's gonna break him,I'm afraid what's gonna happen to him. It won't be easy to avoid him on college. He will be up to my neck

He will make me feel guilty like first time,I tried so hard to forget feelings,to turn my mind on something else,but every time"my voice cracked, hot tears running down my face "I would get weak all over again, I hate the feeling.

I used to be so happy, with no worries, every moment with him felt like floating through the sky, I was smiling until my jaw hurt, I was....I was happy"

Jongho looked at me sadly,sad smile on his face. I turned to him and nodded

"Don't let anyone,but anyone to take your happiness away. All your memories are treasured and you can always remember them every time you feel down"

"Yeah but that's the problem,I will remember him and then get sad again. Just like it happens every time I think of it, of him, of us"

He nodded,looking away. Clasping his hands on his knees,he stood up making me squint my eyes at him

"Let's go, enough sadness, I don't like to see you sad"

I chuckled,wiping my tears away,my eyes stinging from salty tears

"Where are we gonna go?"I asked him,putting on my sunglasses

"Maybe we could go get ice cream and sit somewhere near Han river?"

"I like the idea"I smiled

"It's been a while since those two talked to you. Have you heard from them?"

I furrowed my eyebrows "You mean Yunho and Mingi?"

"Yeah,those guys who played cards with us"

"Well no,not really I guess they have some job to do"

He stopped in the middle of the road "Them? Job?"he came closer to me, whispering "You forgot they're drug dealers"

"Yeah,but I mean,they still have some job to do. Let's go to a place Yunho took me,it's so nice"