𝗔𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 -𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖲𝖺𝗇-

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Wedding day

Today's the day...today's my wedding day..

I sat on the chair in front of mirror, chewing on my lip. I'm gonna marry the one I want I want, the one I love. It still didn't come to my mind that just in few hours, I'll forever be his

Tight feeling of excitement and happiness was bubbling in my chest. I still couldn't believe this day is real and this is really going to happen

They say wedding day is girl's happiest day in her life, but personally, mine was when I got to hold Yeon for the first time. That little girl I carried under my heart for 9 months, to who I was whispering songs and telling stories, San's hands who were petting her

First time ever I saw him walking in..Red hair with black strands, sharp eyes, face so serious that could kill and fixing sleeves of his black shirt

How he smirked at me when he saw me with Wooyoung while talking to Mingi. How he said my name, like it sounded bitter in his mouth. The way he was looking at both of us angrily, disappointed at Wooyoung and like he was mad at me..

Our second interaction I will never forget. When he got in my front yard, scared the crap out of me only to tell me he won't do anything to me. I could still vividly remember how he grabbed me for throat and threatened to shoot me if he wanted to..but he didn't

When I knocked him out with literal wooden stick, my heart stopped and I thought I killed him. I cried and fell right in Wooyoung's arms, who's hands I hoped that would hold mine forever..

I was wrong

I lost Yunho, I made huge misunderstanding with San, I watched Wooyoung leave as his hands were tied, I was our love fading away and our child growing in me

I realized I was falling for San faster than I was ready to admit and I was scared. With all of it, came all of my doubts and thoughts and if ever there was anything I could have changed..

As Wooyoung left my hand and walked away, San came took it in his. With everything I were thinking if I could be happy again, I gave myself chance and him I won't regret

He were with me during it all. We argued, we talked, we were together. With him, everything felt different, but to me, it felt like it was something I was longing for

I was longing for someone like him. And I saw he was longing for someone like me too...even if he wasn't showing it much, I saw it. Every squeeze of his hand, every hug of his, every kiss that would leave me wanting me more, every word he said that made me love his voice..

First time he chuckled and I saw him smile, I knew I am doomed. Internally, I was screaming at myself that moment I wished I was looking away. Because my heart had skipped a beat and my lower stomach warmed and it wasn't something I wanted to feel to feel about him

I was getting mad at my heart for falling for him but I knew I would fail, I could already see myself failing in trying not to fall for him

Because Choi San is a guy who is impossible not to fall for...

The moment I became his friend, fear was filling in my body and it stayed there. I knew I wouldn't be able to stay just friends with him and eventually, some of us will either confess or we will fairly part ways..

But I was good with guys that I just couldn't think of leaving them. For some reason, I couldn't and even if I wanted to, I would be found..They all got attached in my heart and felt like second family despise all of that happened before, if they left, I would feel sad..