𝗔𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 -𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖲𝖺𝗇-

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As if on cue, as if she could feel it, Yeon didn't stop crying and screaming. From moment she woke up, even after I tried to feed her and changed her, she constantly kept trashing around and yelled

"Calm down. Please"I was exhausted, trying to calm her down after crying myself to sleep too

But she didn't stop. She kept on crying and I saw guys were tired and yet they couldn't help me because they knew why she was crying. Wooyoung was her dad after all and there was at least 6 more hours of flight to Manhattan

We were practically returning one day behind because distance was 13 hours. Which meant, if we flew at Saturday 9:30pm, we would arrive there in the morning

We're flying through the day

"I know baby, I know"I held her on my chest, laying in the bed at the back of the plane but she still cried

Pats on her head, kisses and tries to calm her with words didn't help. Nothing could help us because his death broke me too. Everything I feared the most came true

"It's all gonna be okay, just please calm down"I cried

She still kept on whimpering and crying and I knew she won't stop. Soobin looked at us from where he was sitting little afar, lack of sleep was obvious on him and I knew he was also saddening over Wooyoung

Yeon started to scream and cry again and trash around in my arms and I rocked her in my embrace but she screamed even louder

"Let me try"

I looked at Yeonjun who appeared from behind us and took her in his arms, who surprisingly stopped screaming and whimpering. He sat down next to me and looked at the sky outside

"I spent last moments with him"he said quietly

He held Yeon as if she was made of glass, so careful. One hand around her body and other behind her head, that was leaned on his shoulder. She cried but little less now

"In fact, I didn't.. I found him. Soobin and I did"he sniffled, tear rolled down his eye "I tried to stop him, I really did. Told him to think about you, about Yeon. What will I tell you two?"

I shakily exhaled, looking down at my feet "Soobin asked him if he doesn't feel sorry for his brother and Yeon. His answer was no. They won't remember him, they'll be better off without him"

"Wooyoung..."I cried

"Byeol, it's my fault. Hate me, please hate me"he looked at me

When I looked at him, he chuckled through his own tears "I'm the reason he's gone. And he's right. It's my fault. I'm the one who started this all and the one who ended it all. I'm the reason he's gone"he cried

"You're not"Soobin wiped his tears, sitting on bed opposite us "He couldn't hold the pain anymore, you heard him. He hurt Byeol the most, not you"

Yeonjun shook his head, crying "It is my fault. I ruined his life. I'm the reason-"

"You didn't"I rubbed his back "He went on that party and you gave him something to relax. But what he did to himself later isn't your fault. Events that happened later also aren't your fault. Our breakup isn't your fault, his setup marriage isn't your fault, his addiction isn't your fault.

He disappointed me two times. He failed himself to stay strong, even at lowest moments of his life. Even when he promised me on Yeon's life to stop"

"He was grown enough to decide for himself what to do. That was for one night, it was for all of them. But not everyone continued with addiction. Besides, you remember begging him to stop"he comforted Yeonjun