𝗔𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 -𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖲𝖺𝗇-

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Studying started the next day and professor Hwang took it seriously. I took so many notes but it wasn't easy to stay awake because I had 2 months, almost 3 old baby, who I had to feed often and change, a fiance on machines and stepsister too

So excuse me if I fall asleep, it's not my first time

"Byeol...Byeol!"

I shook awake, looking at him. He stared at me disappointed and put his book down. Yeon started crying again from upstairs and I had to excuse myself

"If anyone told me my life was gonna turn this way, I would break up with Wooyoung before his addiction"

I mumbled, not even looking at her but when she kicked at my arm, I was reminded thst if it weren't for Wooyoung and me who had fun that morning, she wouldn't exist and kick me, wake me, make me change her 5 times, feed her every once in a while...

Her giggle made me smile but I wanted to cry. I missed San, so freakin much and I was afraid what was gonna happen when he wakes up. Dayeon's life was also hanging on those machines

"God.."I kneeled down, taking deep breaths not to breakdown because I couldn't afford to cry in front of Yeon

Not now, when my uncle was about to come, when I was about to her so important things from Miss Moon's past

"I don't care"I shook my head, wiping single tears "I don't care about her. I don't care about her at all"

There was strong urge for me to do something and I did it

I opened and slammed shut balcony door, screaming loudly into the foggy air. My hands gripped metal pole of fence. I shook hard and slid down, hanging my head low to cry

"If I don't care..why do you?"I hit it against the glass few times, my breath fogging it "Let's live our lives. Even if not happily, let's not ruin others"

"Byeol.."

Chanwoo rushed in, seeing me in kneeled position and with hands gripping pole "Are you okay?"

"Just..leave me alone. Please." "Your uncle-"

"Leave me alone"I yelled "I don't care who came, leave me alone. Let me be alone"I said softly "Please Chanwoo"

"As you want"

He closed the door and I turned, leaning my back onto the glass fence. When I told them not to interfere, when I asked them why are they bothering themselves with them, the only answer I got was Trust us

"Can I?"I asked myself "Can I really? I want you to leave them alone, that's all"

I started crying, I couldn't hold it in anymore. Knot in my throat was too painful to hold it. Right now, all I who I wanted was San, all I wanted is to be in his embrace, him who would tell me it's all gonna be okay

I twirled ring around my finger

"Please wake up"I whispered "I need you. I can't do this without you"

I wanted him to hold my hand, I wanted to lay my head on his shoulder, I needed him to hug me tightly and feel his arms around me

Almost as if I felt his scent, as if I felt his presence next to me and his warmth. I closed my eyes and tears rolled down my face. My hand felt so empty without his in it, my body felt cold without his next to mine and my ring meant nothing if I don't see him and his smile again

"You can do it"he told me once

I leaned my cheek in his palm and closed my eyes