𝗔𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 -𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖲𝖺𝗇-

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With a heavy heart full of yesterday's events,I couldn't relax at all. Even coffee didn't helped me

I didn't want to bother my grandparents so I left earlier than I usually leave,taking a time for myself.

Remembered Wooyoung and his broken face looking at me when I told him it's over and not to look for me. Everything we had,all times we spent together went into a vain

I cried next to Han river,somewhere far where I'm not used on going. It was far from my college and my neighborhood. There were few people who shared few glances when they saw me crying,all by myself

It broke me dearly. Wooyoung is really a nice guy,really caring, kind,thankful,fun to be around and it's never boring with him. But I just couldn't find myself anymore around him. I couldn't stay around him anymore

This had to be done. Because of him I've cried more than I cried when my selfish parents left for work and never returned,leaving me on care to my grandparents

Something I'm always thankful,because next to them I've learned more about life than I would learn next to mum and dad

I never called them that anyways. Grandma always told me she is extremely disappointed in them and that I shouldn't hate them or love them. They failed as parents and that's it

I won't deny the fact that I've been dreaming about Wooyoung and me one day as parents because I was pretty sure we would stay together and marry one day..

My phone ringed so many times but I put it on a silent mode. Right now I didn't want to be bothered. Whoever it was could wait. I wanted some time for myself

No matter how hard I tried,I couldn't get him out of my mind. Made me almost to unblock his number and forgive him for everything, get back to him, stay in his hug and just hold him close

But I just couldn't. I've been hurt for too long to let it pass. Maybe..just maybe one time if he gives up his drugs we could try again but I highly doubt he's going to do that. If he truly loves me,there will be a chance of him giving up

I even found so many rehabilitation centers and left him so many visit cards in hope he's going to sign himself in,but all he did was burn them or threw them in the trash can

"It just proves how much he actually cares about your relationship. If he truly does,he wouldn't even fight with you"

Jongho had told me when I told him what we did. He was always skeptical about Wooyoung when he approached me,but he approved our relationship. If I were happy,he was happy. But ever since the fights had started,he was telling me to stop hurt and break up.

It was killing him to see me crying every day over Wooyoung. I returned to his place bawling my eyes out and he would always accept me with open arms

Taking deep breathe through my nose,I blinked tears away and wiped red cheeks with my sleeves of the hoodie Wooyoung gave me

I liked it a lot and he said he likes the way it hugs me,so he gave it to me. Wasn't only thing I had of him. When we had sleepover at my place,he would always leave something

But I had to return it. Taking a glance,I stared at the bag where his stuff were. Necklace he gave me for my birthday and another one for 1 month of dating,couple rings he got it for fun because he liked couple things

3 shirts of his,really oversized ones because he also liked them on me. I couldn't watch them anymore so with a heavy heart I needed to give it back. There were no us anymore

I stood up,walking up the stairs to bus station which will get me to his apartment.

It's gonna be okay,I'm gonna be okay