Notes •muke•

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Michael.

Gah I'm a idiot.
I could've went all the way with him but I'm so stupid!

What if I cut on my thighs?
But promised.

"Luke"? I questioned.
There was no answer.
Not one peep.

I walked downstairs.
And saw a note.
A note from luke.
The same sloppy handwriting he's had sense year 9.

Dear Kitten,
I've gone out with alice.
I'll be back soon.
Xx
-penguin.

Alice.
That bitch.
No.
She told me to kill myself years ago.
She's told me to cut.
She is in love with luke.
What the hell does she want from him!

Gah
I'm a fuck up and luke will probably want her.
Fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.

I feel my phone ring.
It's calum.
"Hey bro, who luke holding hand with down at the city park"?
"Like they were really close, possibly kissing"?
"Call me back" he says.
I look up.
I cry.
I run into the bath room.
Same place luke sat.
And I grabbed the metal sharp thing.
And I cut myself.
Only a few though.
Not as many as luke.
And when luke sees.

All I have to do is ask him how alive tasted.
And that's it.

Dear luke,

Don't worry about me.
I'm not your BOYFRIEND or anything important.
I'm glad your probably going to have alive get down on you later
If you want to know where I've gone.
If you even come home.

I'll be at Calums.
Good bye luke Robert hemmings.

- obviously not your boyfriend.

My phone vibrated while siting in the car thinking.
Luke.
Voice mail.
Again he called.
Voice mail.
And once more he called.
I answered.
I was crying.

"Hello" I said.
"Babe what are you doing"? He asked.
"Babe my ass luke" I said.
" What the hell do you mean" he says.
" Oh how soft are spices hand"? "And being closer then strangers"
luke let out a sigh.
"Michael"
"I was helping her she has a broken leg".
"Right" I said.
"Michael I'm not joking" he says.
"I'd never cheat on you"
"Especially with Alice" he says.
"Are you coming home, I've got to talk to you about Alice, or whenever I see you again" I say.
"Michael what"?
"I'm going to calums"
"Bye luke" I say into the phone.
"Mi-" the phone ended.
I pulled out and off to calums I was.
Good bye luke.
For now.