Notes •muke•

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Michael. {{trigger warning.}}

I looked at phone.
The text twirled in my head.
Again.
And again.
Luke was with Ashton.
My dreams are coming true, the story line, the everything.
Luke was with Ashton.

I looked at myself in the mirror.
I nodded in disapproval.

"No" I whispered.
A tear rolled down my cheek.
"No, no, no" I said running into the bathroom where say blood stains from furtive replapses.

I grabbed the cabinet too and saw, no blade was there.
My heart pumped.
Where would it be.
I searched as fast as I could, no blade.
I collapsed onto the ground.

My body gave out.
I sat crying.
My tears were warm.
Calum texted me.

"Are you okay bro"?.
My heart sank.
I thought.
"No I'm not okay" but I never said it.
i just sat.
Crying.

I grabbed the paper from my notebook ripping out a peice.
As began writing.

" Luke,
This place and time was not the best
I mean I've tried so hard to please you but each and everytime I do try, you go away, I know this life was chose for me, but I've tried hard enough to lives life as hard as I could.
But it's not enough for me or you or anyone, I get it now, you don't get me for who I am, I'm sorry, you get Ashton, not me, this place isn't my place, I want to be with my family who understands me, with my grandma, grandpa, remember that kid who died, my bestfriend in year 09? I want to be with him, you have Ashton and calum, and plenty of other people, I remember out last kiss the way you felt the way you tasted, I miss you a lot
Luke I love you.
Goodbye
- Michael Gordon ....Hemmings