Notes •muke•

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Michael.

As I drove I cried.
I just cried.
The tears just rolled down my cheeks.
Warm tears.
I just cried and listened to music
of today's hits.

Last I though I was heading I calums but I ended up at the bridge.
The bridge.
It's could be my last choice I make.
It could be my last feeling i feel.
The last breathe I breathe.
The last everything.
I looked over the bridge and saw the cold water rushing.
I thought if a joke I told luke
Lets play titanic
You be iceberg and I'll go down.
I giggle.
It could be the last joke I ever make.
Everything could end.
Everything.
Me and luke.
Me and my depression.
I won't have to worry about anything.
I could be HAPPY!
I could
Jump and be happy.
Happy.
Lukes happy with Alice.
I'd be happy to.
Forget about judgement.
Forget about haters.
Forget about them all.
Everything and them all.
I want to fly.

I want to be gods angel for once.
I just want go.
And leave.
Just go so far away.
And fly.
Be alone for once.
Be myself for once.
Be beautiful for once.

I can be me for once.
And not worry about being perfect.
Or being perfect.
I wouldn't have to worry about luke.

I could be happy.
And be happy.
And fly.
So far.

I opened my mouth and said.
"God, luke I haven't written sense what yesterday, this isn't a note you'll read it hear, you won't ever know this was made.
I've had sad days before.
Ive had good days before.
I just want you to able depression free.
And to be happy.
I just want you to be happy and nice to things.
Be gentle.
Sound gentle.
Like your lips, gentle.
Your hands, gentle.
I love you is much luke.
My little penguin."

I sighed and said.
"Mikey"
And I jumped.
I felt the cold air rush over me.
I junped.
If I live, that would be hell.
Good bye earth.
Unless I live.

But I jumped.
I did.
I jumped.
I felt like an angel, I felt like I could fly.
I was finally free for once.
I was happy.