Backstage (h.s)

54. Losing your best friend

You are not broken

You are unfolding

Harry 

when I felt my eyes open I felt my stomach drop, today is the first day without my puppy, my best friend. I feel empty when I turn over to see the empty couch, after I told esme about Matthew we decided to hold ripley for a little while longer 

not wanting to let him go 

we also decided to bury him last night as well, it was an emotional time, I remember picking him up and feeling the dead weight in my arms and the dried up blood on the surface of his wound looking up at me, I couldn't look away as we got to the backyard 

esme got me a shovel from the garage and we dug and dug for what felt like hours trying to get a deep enough spot for him to rest 

I lay him down in the dirt and I see my wet tears hit his chest along with Esme's, "baby..." I hear her light voice call me out and my head looks to hers 

"he's safe now" she smiles sadly and I nod looking back down at our dog, he looks peaceful now not hurt or scared 

"I love you" I whisper to ripley and I grab the shovel picking up the dirt we dug out and it falls onto his fur slowly and slowly covering him up, esme helps and we finish together

I close my eyes and imagine him on his bed chewing on his favorite treats with lots of cuddles from esme and I 

"lets go to bed baby" I wrap my arm around her shoulder and she nods

I hear shuffling next to me and I turn over, I see Esme's face as she now looks to ripley's spot on the couch, "it'll be alright" she whispers and her eyes find mine 

I bring my lips to hers, we connect and I feel the passion ripple through us, she pulls away slightly and I see her rosy cheeks

"I'll make you some breakfast" she whispers with a smile on her face and she walks into the kitchen 

a couple minutes later I smell the bacon scent and it gets stronger and stronger as the minutes go on 

I stand up walking into the kitchen and I see the fresh plate of bacon on the table, I see esme turned away from me as she cracks eggs into the pan, "smells good baby" I mumble to her and she grins 

"eat up, we have a long day" she looks down and hands me the plate

"are you nervous?" she peeps out after a couple seconds of silence, "nervous about talking about Matthew?" I ask and she nods 

"yes... I guess I am" I say not knowing what else to put out, "do you know what your gonna say to everyone?" she prys and I take a bite of the crunchy bacon

"what he did to my father, what he did to me, what I think he's going to do to us" I spit of quickly before taking another bite, I look to see her facial expression and its 

blank 

"goldie?" I call her name and she finds my eyes 

"hm?" she asks and I lean forward 

"Everythings going to be okay, you know that right?" I reassure her but she shakes her head

"How do you know that exactly?" she asks in a serious tone and I grab her hand 

"because we can stop him, we have everyone. Niall, Louis, Liam, Ember, Zayn and you and I" I say and she nods

"I'm terrified of him" she whispers and I grab her face 

"I won't let them hurt you" I whispers and she nods

"I love you" she smiles and I kiss her forehead 

"I love you" I say to her 

I hear my phone buzz on the counter and esme hands it to me

"it's Louis" she says and I answer 

"hey man how are ya?" I hear his happy tone and it makes my heart ache, I haven't told any of them yet 

I know that its gonna make Niall go mad, "Thats the thing Lou I need to talk to you about something" I say and I hear him shift

"what's wrong?" he turns serious and I shake my head, "rip, um ripley died last night" I whispers trying not to crack and I hear his breathing increase

"wha- I don't- I don't understand" he says his tone heavy and I let out a breath, "have everyone meet at Nialls in 30 minutes okay, I'll explain there" I whisper and I hear him blow out a breath as well

"o-ok I will" he whispers and I hang up 

I turn to es, and she looks down, "I'll go get ready" she whispers and I walk behind her 

not ready for whats about to happen 

but who is 

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HELLO

wow I updated quickly???? who am I?

anywaysss um I miss y'all 

also we are getting very very close to the end :( 

BUT I STARTED DRAFTING INNOCENCE SO GET READY FOR THAT BESTIES 

okay thats all I love you