I'M NOT WEAK (Tododeku)

Chapter 8: Cuddle

Previously
Todoroki POV:
I don't know what I'm experiencing but I like it. I love how he makes me feel.
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Deku POV:
Deku: "I already told you it's fine. Just calm down and have a drink"

Deku: "Why Kacchan do you figure out the sleeping arrangements?"

Mina: "Oh well Momo just texted me and asked where everyone was and why we were up to and wondered if she could come over"

Deku: "Yeah sure I mean your already here what's one more"

Ochaco: "Hey since we're staying the night she can all my pajamas for all of us"

Tsu: "Good idea, kero"

Mina: Thanks Deku. Hey Ejiro can you send me the address so I can give it so Yaomomo.

In game:
Moreau: "I'll do better next time Mama

Deku: "Mama not here, Mama gonna be dead soon and she gonna see you in hell"

Ururaka: "Isnt that a little harsh?"

Deku: "It's a video game"

Ururaka: "Yeah but your getting mad at a video game"

Deku: Okay sure but that's how I let my anger out. I'm not letting out on a person or anything like that. Besides what do you let your anger out on?"

Ururaka: "Well villains, why should I get mad at them?" They are villains they hurt people"

Deku: Well maybe they didn't have a choice. I'm sorry that your life was so easy. Most people who are villains had a hard life. Some of them are evil but not all. Sure they choose that life but it was probably then they're old one.

Ururaka: "We call them villains, because they gave up. Unless like us heros we don't give up"

Deku: "Gave up? GAVE UP. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW. DO YOU KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE BULLIED EVERY DAY. TO BE TOLD TO KILL YOURSELF. YOUR OWN MOTHER TO GIVE UP ON YOU. I HAVE BEEN ABUSED SINCE I WAS 4 AND ONLY GOT WORST WHEN I TURNED 15. I gave up especially when I tried to kill myself. Most people don't know this but do you know how many people who are villains tried to kill themselves before becoming villains. How about how many villains are put in mental hospitals because they aren't mental okay. So stop seeing them as villains that you can crush under your foot and start seeing them as people. You don't have to see them as good people just see then as people. No one is born evil, it's probably somebody else fault they are like that"

I couldn't, I just couldn't. I walked to my room and just laid on my bed. Do all these people see are black and white when they're is none, it's all grey.

I didn't cry, I just laid there feeling numb. Why can't anyone ever understand. Even all I went through, I worked hard. There was several times I gave up. I gave up on being a hero, I gave up college. I have up on family. I gave up on having a mate. I gave up on having a family of my own. I gave up on everything on what would make me happy.

I told myself I don't need anything or anyone to make me happy but Kacchan. My friends till the very end. He's all I ever needed but he'll leave me too. And I'll be all alone. Again. Fuck now I've started crying. I let my ear and tail come out, always make me feel better.

I don't know how long I laid there but it was dark and I heard a creak at my door.

Deku: "Kacchan is that you?"

???: "No sorry it's me"

Deku: "Who?"

It was dark but I could see the figure is a tall man. I grab my knife that's under my pillow and grab my remote to turn on the lights to see this person.