Lost and Found

Chapter 33

"Hey." Carlos' voice sounded through Sara's phone.

"Hey." Sara's voice was soft and fragile. "Can we talk?"

"Go ahead."

"I mean face to face. I think we need to talk this over and not over the phone." Carlos agreed and they decided to meet up at the café Sara had taken Carlos the first time he had come to Belgium. When Sara got there, Carlos was already there, to plates with waffles in front of him.

"Hey." Sara smiled and sat down. Her heart skipping a beat at the gesture of already ordering them some food.

"Goodness Sara, you look like you didn't sleep a blink." She chuckled.

"That's because I didn't." She shook her head. "I couldn't. With Anthoine and our fight, there was not one moment that I could fall asleep. So I worked on Anthoine's photo album instead." She took a strawberry off her waffle. "But to get to yesterday-"

"I'm sorry for overreacting." Carlos immediately said.

"You have nothing to be sorry for. It is all on me." Sara took a deep breath. "Noah was there when I got home, you know that. You brought me home. He left soon after you did." Sara bit her lip. "He came the next morning and then every day after. Every day he was there. He just sat with me, we talked and talked. He was a bit of an escape from the current state. He was keeping my mind off Anthoine's death. I was in denial when I was with Noah."

"I do have to admit that for a moment I thought that-"

"That I was going to leave you for him?" Carlos nodded.

"It didn't even cross my mind. Every time I was reminded why I divorced him but why we got married at the same time. We get along so well but just as friends."

"I'm glad to hear that." A smile was tugging on Carlos' lips.

"But what I said about him giving the comfort you can't give me. That was unfair but true." Carlos frowned. "But I need to explain it for you to understand. Carlos, you are a racer. You do the same thing-"

"Anthoine did and that frightens you." Carlos took Sara's hands.

"I would have said the exact same thing to Pierre in the heat of the moment. I love you but the thought of-"

"Hold up." Carlos started full-on grinning. "You just said you loved me." Sara blushed heavily when she realised she had actually said she loved Carlos. It was true, the man had stolen her heart faster than she had wanted at the beginning but at that point, she only wished that she had realised sooner that she loved him. Life could be cruel and over in a heartbeat.

"I did." He started laughing as his eyes glistened with happiness.

"I love you too. But it is okay. We both said things we regretted. Let's just forget it and enjoy these waffles. And then go for a walk?"

"That sounds good." They started to eat their waffles and talked about more casual things, like how Piñon, Carlos' dog was doing and how his family was or the stunt Leon had pulled at school that had seen him suspended for a couple of days.

"If you would have told me Leon was Martin's kid I would have believed you immediately." Carlos laughed.

"Well, he does have the Dubois blood running through him." Sara grinned.

"Should I be worried?"

"For what? Me or having kids with me?" She laughed.

"Would you want kids?" Sara shrugged. "No, honestly? Would you want kids?"