Is This Love? - Jess Mariano x Reader

Chapter Thirty- Eight: The Fight and Wedding Plans

Welcome back everyone!!

Mila will be around 10 months old, and party talking.
I will be taking her age much slower now! Sorry!

Slight Authors note before the chapter!
This contains mentioned alcohol, and drunkness.
This may contain sensitive content to some people, or it may be triggering to some people, so if it is please do not read. I will try to not have this chapter be too effective against the storyline!

Y/N's Pov

I was sitting in the living room with Mila. We were sitting on the floor, and I was on my computer leaning against the couch. She was sitting in between my legs, playing with some of her toys.
I was on my computer looking at Wedding locations, and Wedding dresses, and all of the Wedding things.
Mila started crying, and I put my computer to the side, looking at her.
"Hey. What's the matter?" I asked.
She waved around her toy around, started laughed.
"You're so silly." I said in a baby voice.
I kissed her forehead, and went back to my computer.

I heard the front door open, and I saw Jess walk in. He looked upset. Mila reached her hands up, and Jess smiled, reaching down picking her up.
"Hi." Jess smiled, and Mila leaned her head on Jess's shoulder.
I closed my computer, and stood up. I smiled, and kissed Jess's cheek. I ran my fingers threw his hair.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"I got fired.." He whispered.
"What?" I asked.
He looked at me, and I kissed his lips quickly. I looked and saw that Mila was asleep. She was a really easy baby too. Jess walked to her room to put her to sleep.
He walked out, and I walked over to him. He walked over to the couch past me, and sat down.
I walked over, and he stood up, walking past me.
"Jess. Hey. Talk to me." I said.
"I just need a drink." He opened the fringe.
"No beer?" He closed the fridge.
"Well it's not exactly on my shopping list." I whispered.
"Well what the fuck." He mumbled.
"Are you already drunk?" I asked, walking over.
He laughed, and I grabbed his arm. He pushed me away.
"Jess." I started, but he cut me off.
"I'm gonna go get a drink." Jess said.
"I don't think you need more." I said.
"Hey, hey, baby. You mad at me?" He asked, and I stepped away from him, I could practically smell the alcohol in his breath.
"Just go lay down in the bed. I'll be there soon." I said.
"I don't wanna." He said.
"Jess please." I sighed.
"No. " He raised his voice.
"Keep your voice down." I snapped.
"What is your problem?" He asked.
"You're gonna wake up Mila." I crossed my arms.
"Oh yeah?!" He yelled, roughly.
Then I heard Mila crying.
"What an amazing father." I walked to Milas room, and picked her up.
"It's okay baby.. shh. Shh." I whispered.
I kissed her head, and gently rocked her in my arms.

I walked out of my bedroom, and slowly opened Milas door, and she was still asleep. I closed the door, and walked out to the kitchen. I saw Jess sitting at the kitchen counter, he was asleep. His head pressed against the counter top, his jacket, and shoes still on. He also had a bottle of aspirin in his hand.
I sighed, and walked over. I sat down next to him, and gently ran my finger threw his hair.
"Jess." I whispered, and his eyes opened.
His hand held his head as he sat up. I stood up, and grabbed him a glass of water. I handed it to him, and sat back down.
"I-I I'm sorry." Jess whispered.
"I know.." I whispered back.
His eyes were slightly watery. I gently rubbed his back, bringing him into a hug. His head rested against my chest, and I ran my fingers threw his hair, and gently messaging his neck.
I wrapped my other arm around his shoulder.
"Here." I helped him up. "Go take a shower, and lay down. I'll get you something to eat, okay?" I said.
"Okay." He nodded.
"I love you." I whispered.
"I love you too." Jess nodded.
Jess walked to the bathroom, and I walked to Milas room, and saw her laying on her crib smiling when she saw me walk in. I picked her up, and she giggled.
I layed her down on the changing table, and changed her diaper, and changed her clothes. I carried her out to the kitchen.
"How about we make daddy some breakfast? Hmm?" I asked.
She nodded her head, smiling.
"Yeah?" I smiled, and she giggled.

I, we, ended up making Jess pancakes, eggs, and bacon. I got the plate, and picked up Mila. We walked to the bedroom, and I opened the door. I saw Jess sleeping, and Mila gasped, and I laughed. I walked over, and put Mila down on the bed, and she crawled over to Jess.
"Dada." Mila said, laying next to him.
"Hi.." Jess whispered.
"Hi." I smiled.
Jess sat up.
"Hi." He smiled.
I laid in the bed too, and handed Jess the plate food.
"Thank you." He said, and I nodded.
He started eating.
"Good?" I asked.
"Great." He smirked.
"How are you feeling? Your head?" I asked.
"It's good." He nodded.
"Good." I said.
"Are you hungry?" I asked Mila, and she nodded.
"Common." I smiled.
She grabbed my hand, and I picked her off of the bed. I placed her down on the floor, and she slowly wobbled, before steadying herself, and slowly walking with me.
I heard Jess walking behind us. I put Mila on the counter, and grabbed her a plate. I put some scrambled eggs on it, and some cut up fruit.
"Can you get her sippy cup from the fridge?" I asked Jess.
"Yeah." He nodded.

"Are we gonna talk about what happened?" I asked.
"About what." He asked.
"You came home drunk. You cussed at me. Yelled at me, and woke up Mila." I explained.
"I know, I know." Jess stood up.
"Well we need to talk about this." I said.
"You're mad." Jess said.
"I'm not mad.. I just wanna know why you got drunk. Why you drank in the first place." I said.
"I got fired, and. I don't know. I got upset, and I don't know Y/N. I don't, know." He said.
"Okay." I nodded.
"Just.. talk to me about it before you decide to come home like.. that." I said.
"Okay." He nodded.
"Okay." I smiled.
I leaned up, kissing his lips. He kissed me back, before slowly pulling away.

All of the potentially triggering things are over!

Me and Jess were sitting on the couch watching a movie. I was also on my computer looking at Wedding places.
"What are you doing?" Jess asked.
"Nothing." I shrugged.
"I don't believe you." He laughed.
"I'm just.. looking at Wedding locations." I said.
"Oh." Jess said.
"You still wanna get married. Right?" I asked, nervously.
"Yeah, yeah. Of course I do." He said.
"Good." I smiled, then closed my lap top.
"Okay. I have an idea. I don't know how you're gonna take it." I said.
"What is it?" He asked.
"Well I was taking with my mom a couple of days ago. And she brought up an idea.
What about.. having the Wedding in Stars Hollow. I mean I want everyone to be there. And it just seems like a good place. It's my home. I-I mean this is my home. But so is Stars Hollow." I rambled.
"Okay." He said.
"Okay what?" I asked.
"I think it's a good idea." He smirked.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"Well it's better than spending thousands of dollars on a big wedding." He said.
"Yeah." I smiled.
I kissed his cheek, and he kissed my lips. I kissed back, and layed down. He climbed on top of me, and I held his shoulders. He kissed my jawline, and down my neck. He sucked, and gently kissed my neck. I turned my head, and saw Mila crawling out of her room on her hands and knees. She laughed.
"Um Jess." I laughed.
"Hmm?" He asked.
"Look." I said, and he pulled away from my neck.
He smirked, and stood up. I grabbed his hand, and I walked over to Mila. She held her arms up, and I picked her up.
I kissed her cheek, and she giggled. I smiled.
"Hey you hungry?" Jess asked.
"Kinda." I shrugged.
"Are you hungry?" I asked Mila, and she nodded.
"Dada." Mila said, reaching her arms over to Jess. Jess picked her up, and I smiled.
"What should we eat?" Jess asked.
Mila shrugged, and I smiled.
"Oooo. I want chicken." I smiled.
"Yeah?" Jess said, and we walked into the kitchen. Jess sat Mila down on the counter, and Jess got the frozen chicken from the freezer. I grabbed some of the vegetables from the fridge including carrots, celery, tomatoes, and broccoli. I got the cutting board from under the counter top, and started cutting up the vegetables. I put them in the crackpot, and Jess put the kitchen in the crock pot.
I opened the fridge, and grabbed a bottle of formula, and put it in the microwave.

After it was done, I handed it to Jess.
"You wanna feed her?" I asked, and Jess nodded.
He picked up Mila, holding her, and he held the bottle to her lips. She started drinking it, while patting on Jess’s hand that was holding the bottle. I smiled, and set a timer for the food.
I walked over to them, and wrapped my arm around his waist, leaning my head against his arm. Jess glanced at me, with a big smile on his face, and I smiled back at him.

Jess had fished feeding Mila, and the food was done. Mila was sitting in the counter, and I took off the lid to the crock pot. It smelt so good. I sprinkled some salt and petter on the top, and I unplugged the crock pot.
Jess walked over, and got two plates, and two forks. I dished our food up, and cut some chicken, and veggies in small pieces for Mila. I handed her a peice of chicken, and she took it. She nibbled at it, and me and Jess started eating as well.

I hope that you enjoyed this chapter!