Pandas Bamboo •A Rant Book•

my crush

Hi!

I'm about to expose myself here, but I'm gonna describe my crush (kinda) to y'all.

Then, I might tell y'all somethings that have happened between us.

Okay.

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He is two years older than me. (Only by school year) (by age he's only a year older)

Best friends with my brother.

Somehow related to my friend (I don't remember in what way they're related)

Dirty blonde hair

Taller than me (im 5ft 1in)

Sweet

Caring

Mom approved

Brother approved (im guessing since they're best friends)

Goes to my church

In highschool (im in junior high)

Funny

His smile is the cutest (my favourite feature of his)

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Okay some things that have happened with us.

We spent a week together in Oklahoma. We were with other people from our church, but we were both there.

One day at camp, it was the day of our swimming test and my legs gave out in the middle of the lake, I almost drowned, and I was having a panic attack. My brother wouldn't give me a hug, so he got out of his seat and gave me one. Even though I was soaking wet from the lake, he still have me a hug.

Btw. Most of these are gonna be at camp unless I say it was sometime after camp.

Soo. About three days after that, we were in worship at camp, and we were singing the songs and stuff. He grabbed my hand and we held hands in front of everyone. Now, I know, he only did it because everyone was holding hands and I was sitting next to him, but it still happened. We were holding hands the entire time we were singing. My face was bright red, I was so happy it was dark in there.

Then like the next day, after worship I went to the war room. Its a room at camp where we can go and talk to the wranglers (the people leading our groups) about stuff going on in your life and they pray with you and stuff. Anyway, I went in there and when I came out it was really late and I was bawling my eyes out because of everything i had talked about in the war room. When I went outside, our entire group was there. He saw me crying and gave me ANOTHER hug. He was one of the only two people that gave me a hug. My best friend that's a senior in high school was the other one that gave me a hug.

The Sunday after camp we had to go on stage at camp and tell everyone there our favourite part about camp and we sang a song from camp. I was standing next to him. While we were singing, everyone grabbed hands. So we were holding hands in front of everyone, and to make it worse, after my mom said "the boy you were next to is cute. Y'all would make a really cute couple." I got so embarrassed because before we went on stage my brother told everyone we went to camp with that I liked my crush and so I was standing there, explaining how he was wrong and then my brother asked "then why are you blushing" and I said "because you're embarrassing me" and the entire time my crush was standing next to me smiling. That was probably the most embarrassing day of my life.

The last thing I'm gonna talk about. Last Friday at hoco, I was with some girls from school and I saw him so I waved at him and said hi. He smiled and waved back. I went back to my conversation with my friends when I heard him call my name. I looked at him and he was telling someone to go to him. I was confused and pointed to myself. He nodded and so I said bye to the girls and walked over to him. He took me home. Well technically, it was, my brother, my friend, him, another dude, my friends parents, and me. But whatever, he still took me home.

So yeah :)

If he sees this I'm dead but its okay.

Okay, I'm gonna go die in a hole now.

Enjoy reading my love life. BAI