Juliet's POV
I can't believe everything that I'm hearing. My stomach is doing flips. I love him. He said he loves me. Maybe the chase is over. But what next? After it's over, maybe all the sparks will disappear. It won't feel new and amazing anymore.
I'm not sure what to do anymore... Nate is getting really famous and the boys' fans already give me a lot of hate on my social media. I couldn't be with him.
I've decided that he just said I love you because of my situation with Christen.
I haven't actually ever been in a real relationship, I've always been so concerned with my grades and other things that I never really fell in love or been loved for that matter. I'm so sure that this is what love feels like.
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I woke up this morning and realized that I'm on spring break from college. Last night I had a bad dream about Christen. I'm starting to think that maybe it's my fault that Christen lashed out.
I hurt him. I wasn't honest with him. I just decided to lay in bed for a while. I put on my glasses and began to write. I wrote for about an hour or so about everything since I moved out to LA.
After I put my pen down and just reread everything I wrote and I realized just how much shit I put up with. How in love I am.
I stretched but still laid there. It honestly felt amazing. Just to relax and breath but I would have to get up. I put on my high waisted light wash jeans and a floral spring-ish halter crop top and socks since for some strange reason our apartment is always freezing. I left my hair down natural but brushed it out and I don't really feel like putting on my contacts so I just left my glasses on. I ran downstairs to see Jack, Jack, Sammy, and Nate looking straight at me and their conversation stopped. There was an awkward silence. I suppose they were talking about something they don't want me to hear. Probably the Jacks dates last night. I don't really wanna hear that anyways.
"Hey! What are you guys talking about?"
"Oh nothing." Sammy answered.
"Okay." I replied not questioning even though I was wondering.
I reached up to the cabinet to get cereal and realized I was raising up the arm the I had bruises on and quickly put the box on the counter. I didn't put on any makeup because I forgot about the cuts on my face. They weren't that noticeable anyways. I poured my cereal and sat down at the counter on the opposite side of where Nate sat. Gilinsky looked to me quickly, examined me, then started another conversation with the guys.
"So... What do you guys think about going shopping for some new gear today?"
"Sounds cool bro." Johnson answered.
"I'm down." Sammy said.
Gilinsky looked at Nate then gave him a strange look I've never seen before.
"Umm do you guys mind if I chill here for a while? You can text me if you find something you think I might like." Nate said.
What the hell is going on.
Okay. The boys put all their dishes in the sink. Walked towards the door. Before heading over there Johnson walked towards me to give me a hug. He leaned in a whispered something to me.
"I heard about what happened yesterday. I hope you're okay. We will talk after I get back okay? I love you Juliet." He pulled away from the hug. "Good luck." And with that they all left. Nate went over to the couch and put the tv on. This is so awkward.
