Nate's POV
I know I have to tell her. I can't wait any longer. Right now she's sleeping in the passenger seat. I asked Sammy and Heavenly to ride with everyone else because I really need to talk to Juliet. But she was super tired so I want to let her sleep. She's so beautiful... And amazing. I love everything about this woman. I don't want to hurt her. I never want to see her in pain. If I could take away all her pain I would... Even if that meant I had to feel it.
I turn the radio down trying to think about how I could tell her. How will she react? I don't want to lose her but Sammy was right when he told me that I'll lose her if I wait too long. He surprises me sometimes. You know, when he isn't talking about the weird things he normally is. I hear her sigh a little bit then she sits up.
"Are you fully refreshed?" I laugh.
"Umm yeah sure..." She giggles. "Baby what's wrong?"
She always knows when I'm upset.
"I- I have to tell you something Juliet."
"Nate you're scaring me."
"Baby I love you. But in two days I'm leaving." I say breathing in deep. "I'm going on tour, and you can't go with me."
"What?" She asks a little confused.
"You just... Can't go." I say not wanting to say anymore.
"Well okay then." She says frustrated, "How long are you going to be gone?"
I don't answer at first. I know she won't push. If I don't continue the conversation any further than I have to then no damage done, right?
"Nate." She says quietly but stern, "How long?"
"Three and a half months..."
"What the hell Nathan. Why did you wait to tell me two days before you're leaving?"
"Because Juliet, it's too hard for me to tell you." I say raising my voice slightly.
"I don't want to sound like a clingy girlfriend Nate. You know I'm not like that... But why don't you want me there?" She asks upset.
I just look at her.
"Oh." She laughs sarcastically, "So you can sleep with fans right?"
"No that's not it."
"Then what?"
"I know what you did." I say and mentally slap myself for letting it slip.
"What do you mean?"
"You got accepted."
"Nate. What are you talking about?"
"Why didn't you tell me you applied for that job? I would've supported you." I ask.
"Because I knew you would act like this." She yells.
"Oh whatever Juliet." I say getting pissed.
"How did you even know before me?" She says looking at me. "You read my mail when you came to my house?"
"I did but-"
"But you wanted to screw me before you told me right?"
"No Juliet I love you."
"Okay Nate. Just stop talking."
There's complete silence for almost thirty whole minutes of driving. She doesn't speak so neither do I. I know what I did was wrong. But she got accepted and I can't take her away from that. I know she would support me before she would support herself. It's a six hour drive home. It's only been two hours and I'm beginning to wish Sammy and Heavenly had been here so none of this tension even existed. This sucks.
We exchange occasional words like where everyone is stopping at for lunch and how we wish we weren't stuck in the same car with each other.
"Juliet I love you and I need you to understand that everything I do is out of love for you."
She doesn't speak.
"Don't be like this." I say.
Still no response.
"Don't you love me baby?" I ask really upset now.
"No." She replies emotionless.
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A/N
Short chapter but I wanna go to sleep and I also wanted to update before I get really busy this week. Sorry if it sucked. I will have longer chapters coming up. Please vote and comment. You all motivate me to write with that but lately I don't get any comments. Anyways sleep tight.
Much love, Cass (:
