Lament of hearts S2

Chapter 108: Friends

Chapter 108: Friends

 Josh's Pov

"Tatanga tanga ka kasi Josh! Bakit ka ba naglasing ha?! Dahil ba sa lintik na babaeng yun?!"

"Watch what you say Litchiko!"

"Tch. Whatever! I'm just worried for you Josh! Buti nga nakabalik ka pa dito ng buhay! Saan ka ba nanggaling kagabi pagkatapos mong maglasing?! At ano bang nangyari sayo?! Bakit ka nakabaik dito na may mga pasa?! At ngayon naman, may panibago ka na namang pasa?!"

"I told you Litchiko, napaaway lang ako sa mga naglasing rin" I lied. I know. I know what I'm saying. 

I just can't tell her that I just got punched by a celebrity crush of hers.

Also, problema na namin yun. Wag na siyang makialam. 

Then I heard her sighed. 

Lalapit na sana siya sa akin nang may biglang kumatok sa pinto. 

Binuksan niya ang pinto at napatingin ako sa kanya nang tumili siya. "Kyaah! Oh my! Zavriel Isaac Dravenz? Totoo ba to?! Kyaah! Can I take picture with you?" she asked him but then he ignored her.

"Do you need anything Dravenz?" I asked. 

"You and her will talk now. I'll be watching you from a distance"

"Talk? With who?" Litchiko asked. 

"No one" sabi ko naman. 

She rolled her eyes at me. "Can I come?"

I was about to answer when Dravenz spoke. "Another celebrity named Horus Nyle Tyler wants to spend a day with you. Would you let him?"

Lumiwanag naman ang itsura ni Litchiko at mabilis na tumango. "Yes yes! Sure! Why not! Kyaaah napansin nila ako!"

Di nagtagal ay dumating na dito si Tyler at umalis na nga silang dalawa ni Litchiko. 

"Let's go. Horus will distract that woman"

*****

I am now here near the shore with Khiena. Dravenz is indeed watching us with a distance. 

Well, I can't blame him. I did something terrible last time.

"What do you want to talk about? Aren't you mad at me for what I did to you last night?" I asked her as I faced the sea and looked down on the sand.

On my peripheral view, I saw how Khiena faced me. "Of course I'm mad. Like, how dare you!"

I flinched as she yell at me.

"I can't believe you would give me another traumatic experience! Do you have any idea how hard it is to deal with traumas?!"

Seriously. I can't face her.

She really changed a lot. It's good.

She can now open her thoughts. Her feelings. I'm glad.

"But.... I forgive you"

Agad na napatingin ako sa kanya nang sabihin niyang pinapatawad na niya ako.

That's it? Why? I don't think I deserve it.

She smiled a little. "I forgive you. Forgiving is easy but forgetting is hard. But no matter what, I still forgive you"

"But why? I don't think I deserve it----" she cut me off.

"Josh, everybody deserves to be forgiven. No matter what their sins are. It's the karma, its in the judgment, these things are the ones who will take care of your sins"

Napayuko naman ako dahil guilty talaga ako sa mga kasalanan ko.

"Sorry. I really am. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakabawi sa mga kasalanan ko sayo. I really am sorry. Pwede mo namang hindi ako patawarin. I deserve it" I told her.

She gently held me on my chin and made me look at her. "Kung ang Diyos nga nagpapatawad, ako pa kaya na tao lang?" She said, smiling. "Karma na ang bahala sa lahat. Basta, pinapatawad na kita"

Then, I just can't stop this tear from falling from my eyes.

"I really love you Khiena. I really do. Up until now I'm hoping for a chance from you. A chance for us to be together again"

"I'm sorry Josh. I can't give you that. I loved you too before but maybe not that much. And I'm sorry for it. And right now, I'm really in love and happy with someone else. Why don't you just be happy for me? And, I know soon, you'll be able to find someone who will love you as much as you deserve"

"Pero paano kung wala? Paano kung walang itinadhana sa akin?"

She shook her head and smiled. "Tayo ang nagsusulat ng sarili nating tadhana. Nasa sa atin kung sino ang pipiliin natin na makakasama habang buhay. So, it's not impossible for you to find someone else, someone who will definitely teach you what love is"

"Khiena"

"Hmm?"

I stared right into her eyes and even though it hurts, I guess I should just be happy for her new life. "Can I just hear you say for the last time that you love me? And can you hug me? For the last time?"

"I can't say that since it'll be a lie, and it would hurt so much than the truth" she said.

"But..." Napatingin naman ako sa kanya at nanlaki na lang ang aking mga mga mata nang bigla niya akong yakapin. "I loved you Josh"

"You don't want to be friends with me right? That's fine for me" I told her.

"We can still be friends. But not too close to each other. Sorry. Sorry Josh" she said as her hug became tighter.

I hugged her back. And it is much more tighter than hers.

'I love you Khiena. But even though it hurts, I'll try to let you go little by little. I'll just wish for you and your new lover's happiness'

Di rin nagtagal ay kumalas na kami sa yakapan.

She smiled at me. "I guess that was all. Well, bye. See you?"

I smiled back and gave her a nod. "Yes. See you when I see you"