Loved Behind the Sun

Chapter 01

5 years later...

Marami ng nagbago, including myself of course. After all the experiences I've been through, I don't know how I still managed to stay strong. Simula ng nagkasakit ako, everything I do has limitations, but I didn't let my parents control me to do what I really want to do in my life. I want to prove to them that despite my illness, I can able to still live normally, without too much limiting myself.

Its been 5 years, nakagraduate na ko ng college sa states with a degree on Business Management. We decided na mag migrate sa America para doon ako mag aral, to move on to be exact. Gusto rin ng parents ko na duon na ko magpagamot. Sa ngayon my condition is stable, hopefully it will remain this way as long as my body can handle.

"Are you really ready to come back anak?" Tanong sakin ni Mom, she looks worried but I gave her a genuine smile.

"Yes Mom I'm ready, don't worry about me I can handle myself. I need to run our business in Manila, dad entrusted me to manage our company their and I can't dissapoint him," I answered and she just nodded as a response.

Today we're flying back to Manila. To be honest I'm not that afraid to get back, as if pag ka landing namin ng eroplano ay makikita ko 'siya' sa airport. Siya lang naman ang kaisa isang taong kinatatakutan ko na makita ulit, I don't know what I would react if I see his face again.

That day when we broke up, it was the most painful memory in my life. Did I regret it? Maybe yes? Maybe not? Yes because I love him so much that I don't want to lose him, ever. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, but for me... its a selfish decision to make. Ayokong maipit siya sakin, ayokong magmahal siya ng babaeng magiging pabigat lang sa buhay niya. Ayokong saluhin niya yung sakit at bigat na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing inaatake ako ng sarili kong sakit. I don't want him to pity me.

Maybe I did not regret my decision, I was just thinking of what I know is best for him. Alam kong nasaktan ko siya sa pag iwan ko sakanya... Pero mas masasaktan ko siya kung malalaman niya na ang babaeng mahal niya, posibleng mawala sa kahit anong oras.

Ever since I got sick, tinanggap ko na na posible akong biglang mawala agad sa mundong 'to. Lupus just triggers on the body unexpectedly. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan lang ba kakayanin ng katawan ko ang paglaban sa sakit na 'to.

But I am fighting, I will continue to fight for my family... They are my source of strength after all.

"Kumpleto na ba ang mga gamit mo?" Mom ask at dala dala narin niya ang sariling maleta.

"Yes Mom kagabi ko pa chineck and I brought everything I need" I said.

"Are you ready my ladies?" Bungad samin ni Dad while walking down the staircase.

"Yes Hon we are, lets go?" Sagot naman ni Mom sakanya and we walk our way out of the house. Ma mi-miss ko rin ang bahay na 'to at ang buong Amerika, its been our second home aside from Philippines.

Manila...

The hot weather of the Philippines greeted us as soon as we landed at the airport. I wore my shades cause the sun is hurting my eyes a bit. Kinuha nanamin ang mga luggages sa carousel and we headed out the airport. Mabuti at nandoon kaagad ang susundo sa amin kaya sumakay na kami agad sa loob ng kotse, our driver is loading the trunk with our luggages.

"Saan mo gusto kumain anak? Gusto mo dumaan tayo sa Mall para doon kumain ng lunch?" Mom asked me. I shook my head as response.

"Hindi na Mom magpahanda nalang po kayo ng pagkain sa bahay, I'm kind of tired para dumaan pa sa Mall," I said at tumango naman siya. She called our head maid sa bahay para magpahanda na ng pagkain.