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entry 00  |  6:24 pm

out of all the things i could have done, downloading some weird app to rant was best thing i could think of, questionable but yeah what else do you except me to do? talk about it??

anyways let me introduce myself to my audience so i won't be turning crazy anytime soon.

the names vernon and i have a fat crush on my best friend 😻

oh wait we can add emoji's in this too?! 🥺🤬😲😭😞😖

i'm getting off topic that's not why i'm here. so tell me tell you about my sorrows

at the fresh age of 16 my family  decided to ship me off to korea (dw they came with me too) since it's apparently a lot more 'safer' than nyc and my dad missed korea or something. i remember the first day i went to school, it was horrifying.

being this kid who flew from america wasn't helping either, like just cause i looked foreign doesnt mean i didn't know korean so i was singled out from the beginning since no one even tried to talk to me, ofc like another person i felt horrible until this lovely boy came up to me and offered me some strawberry milk. i'm actually not the biggest fan of that drink but he had such a sweet smile on his face so i couldn't say no. and then boom we became friends

i'm not gonna reveal is real name cause internet danger and what not so let's call him boo

anyways i wouldn't call it 'love at first sight' but after awhile of sticking with him, it was hard not to fall for him and his wonderful smile

but like seriously his smile is so beautiful like i remember seeing it the first time and saw the heavens gates open up, sparkles all around us or maybe i was so deprived of social interaction that it happened but whatever he's amazing okay

getting real though if it hasn't for him coming up to me and then realising that i could understand korean, i would have stayed that friendless new kid. i mean it's not like i'm any better now but i have a handful of friends, doing well in school (surprisingly) and everyday feels happy cause of boo

now you might be wondering why not confess to him instead of ranting over here on the internet 

great question 

i'm a coward

well my self confidence is already at some -100 and i don't wanna ruin our relationship yk, i mean he doesn't know that i'm bi even though we've been friends for three years. and his sexuality is a huge question mark, he has absolutely no interest in love or he's just as dense as a rock

but neways i think this is a good place to leave at for the 1st entry, i'll be back with juicy updates about my pitiful love life so dw

-v