Tense

Chapter Eleven

"No!" Kai called out as he got up from the bed and rushed towards his best friend who was walking towards the door of their room, "No, Ro, Ro please. Ro, please don't go."

"Kai.."

"I'm sorry," Kai apologized, "I— I just, I'm just selfish, okay? I like having you all to me and.."

"You can't expect me not to meet other people. I have a life, Kai." Roan said.

"I know! I'm sorry, okay? I won't— I won't talk about this again, I swear." Kai replied.

"Just because you won't talk about it doesn't mean you won't be thinking of it." Roan pointed out.

"I'll try not to, I promise. I'll learn not to be selfish," Kai grabbed Roan's arm to make sure he doesn't leave, "You're my best friend and I.. I hate the idea of sharing you."

"I can't be all yours if you're not mine."

"But I am yours." Kai said.

"Not in the way I want you to be," Roan sighed, "Which is okay. Seriously, I understand that you don't— that you can't share my feelings, but at the same time I have the right to try and move on."

"I've been a shitty best friend," Kai frowned, "And I'll do better. I'll, uh, I'll even try to get you a date. I'll be the best fucking wingman."

"You're an idiot."

"But I'm your idiot." Kai passed a hopeful smile.

"You can't keep saying things like this," Roan shrugged his arm off from Kai's hold, "I think it's best if I stay out tonight—"

"No! Please," Kai grabbed Roan's shoulder and pulled the blonde towards him, he took a couple of steps back and pressed him against the wall as he looked at his best friend with pleading eyes, "Don't leave me."

"I'm not— I'm not," Roan's gaze softened at Kai's vulnerability, "It's just for tonight.."

"Please.." Kai begged. Before Roan could say anything, Kai leant forward and pressed his lips against Roan's.

This was the first time that Kai was initiating a kiss. It took Roan a few seconds to get over the initial shock, and he was stuck mentally between pushing Kai away, or giving in. Thanks to the alcohol in his system and his weakness when it came to his beautiful best friend, he kissed back.

"Will you stay?" Kai whispered as he pulled back.

Roan had no choice but to nod.

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Whenever the boys slept in the same bed, there were times when their arms or legs accidently ended up around the other. Especially when they slept in Kai's relatively smaller bed. But they had never really cuddled to speak.

Roan woke up before his alarm when a ray of sunlight hit him directly on his face, peeking in from a tiny space between two curtains. He noticed his arm going numb because of the weight of Kai's head. Roan was the big spoon, with one arm underneath the brunette and the other around his waist.

It took Roan a few seconds to notice that he was shirtless, still wearing his sweatpants, but that Kai was only in his briefs. He couldn't help but feel aroused at their position and their lack of clothing, and before he knew it, he had an erection. The fact that Kai shifted slightly, pressing his butt against his best friend's clothed dick, didn't make it any better.

"Kai. Kai, move from my arm." Roan whispered as he tried to gently push the brunette away with his free hand.

Kai didn't say anything in return, instead he just groaned and shifted back even further.

"Kai.." Roan breathed.

"Morning.." Kai muttered as he held his best friend's arm. Roan was expecting Kai to push his arm away, but instead he toon the blonde's hand and slid it down from his waist to his groin.

Roan grabbed hold of Kai's hard on, his breath hitched as Kai let out a soft moan and started moving his hips ever so slightly. Roan shut his eyes, allowing himself to feel good for a moment before he remembered their conversation from the night before.

"Kai, I told you not to start something you can't finish." Roan said.

"Who says I don't want to finish?" Kai replied, "We should.. We should relieve ourselves before the game, huh?"

"Are you sure?" Roan asked. Normally he would've just walked away, but three things were stoppong him.

One, he really liked Kai.

Two, the brunette was really fucking sexy, and the morning wood was making him feel dizzy with lust.

Three, he was fucking horny and desperately needed a release.

"I'm sure." Kai answered as he slid his hand back and gripped Roan's crotch. He tried to pull his sweats down, but it was a weird angle. Roan removed Kai's hand and got rid of his sweats himself, and now both the boys were just in their briefs.

Roan heard Kai take a deep breath, and then he pulled down his underwear in a single go. Roan couldn't help but feel mesmerised by the naked ass pressing against him. He kept his hand there, kneading his cheek as he grinded himself harder.

"Underwear.." Kai moaned, "Off.."

Roan obliged and removed his briefs, he held the base of his dick and slapped it against Kai's ass. Roan grabbed Kai's member as he slid his on between brunette's ass cheeks. Kai was rubbing back on him as he tried to match the pace at which the blonde was jerking him off.

"Turn." Roan whispered and Kai obliged. He laid on his back as Roan climbed on top of him, resting his weight on one elbow. Roan used his other hand to grab both of their dicks and jerk them off. His forehead was on Kai's, and both the boys had their eyes closed.

The only sound in the room was their laboured breathing, and the occasional moan that escaped Kai's lips. Something about their faces being so close, their foreheads and noses touching but not their lips felt so intimate to Roan.

They weren't having sex, quite frankly Roan didn't think he was even ready to have sex with his best friend, but being like this, being so close to Kai with their dicks rubbing against each other, both in the palm of his hand as a few rays of the sun penetrated the room through the thin curtains made everything so blissful. But then again, being anywhere in anyway with Kai would be bliss for Roan.

"Fuck.." Kai whispered, and Roan knew that he was close. Both of them were. Hearing Kai curse turned Roan on even more, considering he only heard it on special occasions and it meant that Kai was truly lost in what he feeling. What Roan was making him feel.

Roan finally opened his eyes, and lifted his head just enough to be able to see Kai's face. Kai's eyes were closed and his lips parted, his fingers were digging into Roan's back as he moaned and gasped. Roan knew that the brunette was itching for release now, so he increased his pace.

Kai's eyes opened with a gasp, his back arched and Roan didn't have to look down to know that the brunette finally came. The look on his best friend's face as he orgasmed pushed him towards the edge too. Roan followed as he shot all over Kai's abdomen.

"Fuck." Kai said again and Roan smirked as he slid from on top off the brunette and laid down next to him. Both of them stared wordlessly at the ceiling, no doubt trying to process what just happened.

Things went too far this time. They weren't drunk. They weren't angry or in the heat of the moment. They weren't just having fun either. This was something else. Their thoughts were interrupted when Roan's alarm rang on his phone. He stretched his arm towards the bedside table and switched it off without even looking.

"I'll go clean up and uh, shower first." Kai said as he got up and walked inside the washroom.

Roan kept laying on the bed as he recalled Kai's face as he came over and over again. It was like the sight was etching itself inside Roan's mind, a memory that's going to stay engraved forever because there was no way the blonde was ever going to forget this.

"Fuck." Roan said, knowing very well that he was, indeed, very thoroughly fucked.

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