"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you."
Even after all the pain and regrets, I'm still here forgiving and welcoming him with open arms.
Ganoon ko siya kamahal. At ang nagmamahal ay marunong magpatawad.
Wala na akong mapapala kung patuloy akong mabubuhay sa nakaraan at kikimkimin ang galit.
There's a famous quote that goes: 'Holding onto resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. '
Lumuhod rin ako para pantayan siya habang patuloy siya sa pag-iyak.
"Please tell me what to do, love." He bit his bottom lip and cried harder.
I only found out this side of him. He's such a crybaby.
I wiped the tears on his cheek and planted a soft kiss on his lips. "Don't do anything. Just stay." I whispered.
Dahan-dahan siyang nag-angat ng tingin sa akin.
He looked at me with joy and hope. It took him a moment before he gave me a reply.
"I will. I promise." He assured me.
Huminga ako ng malalim bago tumayo . Tumayo na rin siya.
I raised a brow. Dapat pahirapan ko muna siya.
"Cook for me. I'm suddenly hungry." I tried to look bossy.
G–ga, Cresia ! Hatinggabi tapos gutom ka? Ang galing mong magpanggap!
I expected him to complain but he just nodded happily as he wipe his remaining tears.
Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi para pigilan ang mapangiti,para siyang bata kung umasta.
"Alright. Wait for me." He agreed as he went to the kitchen.
Umupo ako sa sofa para manood habang hinihintay ko siya. After an hour, he called me, saying that the food is ready.
Kumalam ang sikmura ko sa adobong nakahanda sa mesa. Nagpanggap akong walang pakialam sa niluto niya at umupo na lamang.
Nagsalin siya ng kanin at ulam sa plato ko. Nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya, pinapanood ko lang ang bawat paggalaw niya. Pagkatapos ay naglagay rin siya ng pagkain sa plato niya.
Habang kumakain kami ng tahimik, nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya. Parang iiyak na siya at tila nagpipigil.
"Hey, are you crying?" I asked.
Huminto siya sa pagkain. Hindi na niya napigilan ang pagtulo ng mga luha niya.
I stared at him worriedly.
Ilang sandali pa ay nakita ko ang pag-alog ng mga balikat niya habang nakayuko siya.
He chuckled as he wipe his tears.
"It's just that... I miss this.. you know... I miss cooking for you. I didn't even cook a single food for you for the past 5 years," aniya.
I smiled painfully, realizing what he said.
"It's okay. Let's eat now," I said.
Tumango-tango siya na parang bata at nagpatuloy na rin sa pagkain.
We finished eating after few minutes. I volunteered to wash the plates but he disagreed. Kaya sa huli, siya na ang naghugas.
He asked me if he can sleep here. I hesitated at first, but after staring at his pleading eyes, I agreed.
"I miss this," he whispered.
Nakasubsob ang mukha niya sa leeg ko habang nakahiga kami sa kama. Nakayakap rin ang braso niya sa beywang ko. Ramdam ko ang mainit niyang hininga. This feels so surreal.
I learned that some people would rather die than forgive. It's a strange truth, but forgiveness is a painful and difficult process. It's not something that happens overnight. Forgiveness is not always easy. It feels more painful than the wound we suffered, to forgive the one that caused it. Others think that forgiveness is weakness, but it's absolutely not; it takes a very strong person to forgive.
To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.
Another long silence stretched between us hanggang sa magulat nalang ako dahil naramdaman kong nababasa ang leeg ko. Doon ko napagtantong umiiyak na naman siya.
Hanggang kailan ka ba titigil kakaiyak, huh?
"I'm sorry.." He sobbed, garalgal ang boses niya.
"I'm really sorry, love," patuloy niya.
I sighed. Hearing his sobs strangled my heart. I couldn't bear to see him cry.
"Shhh. I told you that I'm okay now. Just sleep okay? We'll talk tomorrow." I assured him as I caressed his hair.
Hinintay ko siya hanggang sa humina ang paghikbi niya. Ilang minuto pa ang nakalipas hanggang sa tumigil siya sa pag-iyak. Ramdam ko ang banayad na paghinga niya kaya maaaring nakatulog na siya.
Tinitigan ko pa siya ng matagal. Parang gusto ko nalamang tumigil ang oras at manatili kaming ganito.
I closed my eyes and before I finally doze off to sleep, I heard him whispered,
"I love you."
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Allejo Series 1 | Forsaken Memories
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