The pretend

Chapter 15

Jared

"Marco can you get me in contact with doctor Emerson Webber," I tell my assistant who looked at me like I have grown two heads. I know he is wondering why I was here when I told him that I will work at home for weeks. His mouth opened and closed wanting to ask but nothing came out. He knows better not to ask. I'm an outgoing person with my employees but I don't want them to interfere in my personal life.

Though I take Marco as my little brother, he had been working for us for seven years and he is the only person except for our friends who know that I'm married to Everett. He had to know since Everett comes here every time. But he sighed the contract to not say a thing. And he had been true to his word because in these years no one knows at the company. They only know that Ev is my friend like Marc is.

"I need him on my phone in ten minutes," I say walking away from him after he said yes sir. I entered my office going straight to my fridge getting a bottle of vodka strutting towards the window taking bitter substance but it wasn't calming me down like at all.

Tears started streaming down my face not controlling them any more. I feel hurt, betrayed yet I know I don't have the right to be. Everett is a grown-up man, he knows what's good in his life and it's his body to choose whatever he wants but what hurts is that he risked his life. We are married, we're one person who was joined together for life so he shouldn't have done it when he knew I was so against it.

We have to decide everything together but he decided to go behind my back. He didn't value his life. He didn't think about me, he didn't think about how it will make me feel if he did it. I like children, yes but I don't want to get them like this. His words still lingered in my mind, he was right. My cowardice made him do this.

He risked losing his life because of me. I'm so undeserving. He deserves better than me but I can't shake off the hurt I feel inside my heart, he should at least have told me.

Everett never lied to me, and likewise, we always tell each other anything no matter how embarrassing or shameful it is. That's our rule but he had to do this without my knowledge. I thought he let it go when he stopped pestering me but I was wrong. He had used the damn pill. I thought this Nick guy destructed him but I was wrong.

I took a big swing on the vodka watching cars pass by, at this moment I don't even know what to think. If I lose Everett where will I be. One thing is for sure I won't be the same. He might not know it but he is my life, my everything.

Yet I can't tell my parents the truth. My subconsciousness said to me. He was right, sometimes reactions speak louder than words. Even though I prolong it, I know the time has to come and choose between my parents and Everett but the question was, who would I choose? I love all of them the same.

Why would I have to choose? Ugggg I hate my life.

I wiped all my tears away when my assistant knocked on the door. He came in "sir here is the number you asked me" I walked towards my chair not missing the way Marco eyed the bottle in my hands. "Are you ok sir" I knew he would ask.

"I'm good Marco" I reply dismissingly.

"Can I call sir Everett?" he asked innocently.

"No, Ju...leave" I gave him a hard stare which means I don't want to be disturbed. He nodded slowly in concern muttering if I need anything I should call him. I dialed doctor Emerson's number. I might be mad at my love, but I can't stop caring for him. I need him in my life.

"Dr. Webber's office who I am speaking to and how may I help you," a high-pitched voice said through the phone.

"This is Jared Easton, can I speak with doctor Emerson Webber," I say through the phone.