The Promises He Made

^Chapter 24^

"Come on, Chanelle! What the hell goin on witchu?! Yo toes ain't pointed!!! Yo stunts is crippled!!! And you dancin like you got rocks in yo damn pants!!!!! Get it together! Or you'll be on that floor right next to Zatia. CUT!!!!!!!!" Ms.D yells at me. I sigh and nod as I walk back to my starting spot on the floor.

I've been having problems in practice all day. I'm really trying. I am. I just can't seem to get this damn stand right! My morning sickness was a complete Bitvh this morning so I was almost late. Now I can't master the moves like usual because I'm so tired. And ontop of that my tummy is aching. But I've been on this team about 8 months already and I've never been cut. I ain't startin today either!!!

"EVERYBODY!! STICK TO THE MOVES!" Coach D yells walking to the front of the studio. She glared around the room before picking up her clipboard. No pressure. Right? *Note to sarcasm*

She cut the music back on and I took a deep breath. I let all the troubles and worries I had flow away as I began dancing. I focused on doing what I do best. Dance. I hit the moves flawlessly. My stunts were on point. Face reactions were priceless. Hair flicks were perfect. I did everything right. I was gonna make cuts it killed me! I did my cat jump then my roll over, ending my stunts and my parts of the stand. Ms.D smiled brightly as she cut the music off and clapped her hands twice.

"Yes Chanelle! That's the bad beast I had on my team in the first place. Yass!" She smiles widely. I laugh slightly.

"You saved Yoself from getting cut today." Ms.D adds still smiling. Everyone clapped slightly before we finished going through cuts.

I was packing my stuff up when I heard Tiaria on the phone. She was talking to Deandre! Oh gawd I miss him. Lord know I do. If he were still here I'd probably be with him. And I know we would have been and made love by now. I know he wouldn't forget to wrap it up. But noo. I got Hakeem's dumb, cocky, easily forgettable, corny ass. Ugh! Well I can't complain. I luh Hakeem too. It's just something about Deandre that I can't let go.

I listened in slightly on their conversation.

"How's it goin up there?" Tiaria asks. I could only hear her side of the conversation.

"*Gasps* really? Oh my god how far is she?" She asked excited. "Aww. Is it a boy or a girl?" She asks.

My heart stopped completely. Who is she?! And who's baby she got?! Not Deandres, I hope. He got some girl pregnant?! Ugh! I can't fuvking believe him. Wait a minute. Chanelle what the hell you talkin bout? You almost a month pregnant with Hakeem's baby! Shut the hell up! It ain't my fault! It was an accident. I didn't know once was all it took!

I was yelling at and defending myself at the same time. We all lil bit crazy. I'm just a little bit further in my pyschoness.

"You better be with her every step of the way!" Tiaria laughed. I frowned and felt my eyes begin to burn. I blinked away my tears and went into deep thought.

I knew I couldn't say anything about him getting another girl pregnant. I had no room to talk. Plus we cut off for reasons like this. If we were dating no tellin if we'd be faithful. I'm pregnant by somebody else. And he got somebody else pregnant. So I'm guessing we probably wouldn't. Maybe? Ugh I don't know. I just need to let him go.

I hate to admit to myself that I wanted Deandre to come back to me. It never left my mind that it was possible for us to be together again. I mean yes he'll be in college for 4 or 5 years. But for him I was willing to wait.

The thought of us being together again never left my mind. It just roamed in the back of it. And whatever Hakeem and I have going on would stop once he came back. But I never knew Deandre would leave me. I never knew Hakeem and I would get together. I never knew Hakeem would love me. I never knew Hakeem and I'd have sex. I didn't know all of this would happen! My grandmama said life is full uh surprises. Ain't no lie in that!