My haunting past

Chapter 25-Home

"You're pregnant?" Stefan questioned surprised looking at me

"Was" I replied correcting him

"Did you miscarriage, are you okay?" He got up from his seat and walked towards me. I put my hand out for him to not get any closer, he looked hurt by it.

"No, I got an abortion" I stated having no emotion or even bothering to say it in a nicer tone. He is an adult and there is no reason to beat around the bush.

"What, when? Where? Why didn't you talk to me about this?" He shot different questions at me

"I didn't talk to you about this because you would try to convince me not to get one when I practically died with Anthony's surgery. There is less than 5 percent chance I can get pregnant after Anthony and even if I did, the baby wouldn't make it past the first trimester and if somehow it did I would have died in childbirth with the baby as well. I wasn't going to take a chance for you to be a better father and actually be in the kid's life!" I yelled at him, my hands clenching and unclenching as I try to keep calm but can't.

"I would have been there, it is your decision and I wouldn't try to put you in danger" he defended

"How would I know that when you filed for custody and then forced me into retirement" I threw my hands in the air out of frustration

"I'm sorry for that, you have to know I won't do anything like that. When did you get it done?" He asked

"When I was in California with my brothers. It was meant to clear the tension with my family and theirs. Blood for blood" I stated

"Andrew's for our unborn" he replied

"It was going to die anyway no point in prolonging it" I shook my head

"Are you okay?" He asked stepping closer to me

"Yeah I am fine, how mad are the kids?" I questioned

"Mad but they are cooling off, Ella is disappointed" He said

"I didn't mean to miss it, ever since people have noticed Samantha has slowly taken my spot they don't respect her or me" I replied walking towards the couch to sit.

"You have to toughen up again, you've gone soft recently" He followed behind and pulled a chair across from me

"Oh I'm sorry, my husband came back from the dead and I had a heart attack" I sarcastically said

"You are leaving the work life soon so make sure people remember you" he replied

"Oh they will, the psychotic one with a drug problem and a dead but alive husband" I chuckled getting a laugh at my situation.

This year has been terrible and my reputation hasn't been the greatest. I never thought this would be my life but I tried and yet I still failed

"You're not to me, you're special and you'll always be" he pushed my hair behind my ear.

"Thanks, you're the only one it seems like" I laughed

"The people in your life don't think of you that way. I doubt Jenna or James or Lucas think that" he said

"I feel bad, I always go to them with my problems and they have their own lives" I sighed

"You shouldn't be ashamed for that, if you're interrupting them then they would mention it." He replied

"I don't know, my life's a mess" I chuckled shaking my head

"I'm sorry for that, it's my fault" he said biting his lip

"Whatever now, we can't go back in time" I replied

"Yeah but I'll do anything to make it better, I'm serious" Stefan said looking serious. I can tell when he actually means it versus when he isn't.