Pride & Prejudice (ChanBaek)

52: Void

"Chanyeollie....."

"Stop! ..... stop calling me with that name...."

"I....."

"Final..... question. Director Byun Baekhyun..."

"..................."

"Did you..... really love me?"

What should........ I do?
We have come till this way... and I made... a hard ... decision...

If I turn back now... will you still believe me?
That image of you with a girl... still popping up in my head like a cinematic record.
And words that your parents said..
My pride that have been.... thrown away by those words....

"I......... I....... I didn't...."

And .... He just... laugh a very dry and.... sarcastic laugh.

"Just a replacement for your beloved ex-lover... huh...."

You are so.... Stupid park chanyeol...
How can you believe that?
Don't you know I love you.....that I'm lying now....
At least..... at least don't.... Don't look at me with those.... Cold eyes..

"Chanyeol... that's not it!"

"So?" I flinch a little by how cold his eyes are right now.

"I...... it wasn't......"

"What wasn't? Ah..... not a replacement but just a toy for you?"

"Don't talk about me like this?"

"That pride of yours..... I wish someone will crush that definitely"

"What?" I frown

"Your high and mighty pride.
That you don't admit your feelings.
That you don't want others to think bad of you when you are actually.... The Worst"

The....worst?

"My parents said something to you that hurt your pride?
And run away like a coward..
If you really loved me.... If you are in love with me....
You would try for me.
Or...... is.... Being in love is something that..... is hurting your pride?
And not worth of it?"

He is just blabbing things.....
they are not right..... he should know this....
Why is he..... why is he hurting Me?

"No words?" He asks

Yes..... I want to say.... They are all wrong...
And......
And that I love you....

"I......"

"Sorry to waste your time... all these times.
You are just a coward.... And liar.
I hope we never encounter again" Chanyeollie says as he just walks away from me

No....
Please.... Please don't leave me....
Please....

"Director Byun!" Mr. Wu catches me as my legs give up and about to drop onto the ground

"Are you okay? Let's go into your house... or... should I follow Park chanyeol ssi?"

"N....no...... he's... gone. He's gone for real now.... He's just..... he just..... he hates me now" I can't help but start crying out like a kid who just lost his favourite thing.
No matter how much I cry, the one that I lost...
Won't be back.

Because this is the decision and a way that I chose to walk on.
Regrets?
As soon as I saw those hatred in his eyes, my regrets start filling me up.

Ah...... I really..... sincerely..... love you.

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