LAST FIRST NIGHT ( A ThirBea Fanfiction )

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

I went to my car and was about to shout Thirdy's name when I saw my wipers up again but I stop myself.I inhaled and just went inside. It's been days na iniiwasan ko siya after he said he love me pa. I mean I feel the same but the fact na umiinom kami that time just don't make sense at all. I know he's just drunk and maybe that time he's thinking about Julia. Nasabi na din ni Dani na he hasn't made his way pa to propose to Julia.

It was relieving to know na hindi pa pala sila but at the same time ang hirap kasi hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang gusto niya. If he meant what he said or not,kasi hindi na niya ako napuntahan after that night,I mean iniiwasan ko pala siya.

I was about to turn on my engine but I saw him running towards my car,so I didn't kasi baka malaman niyang nandito ako,iniiwasan ko nga diba? I pretend na walang tao sa loob. Pinagpapawisan na ako pero I can't move kasi,I just let him stand beside. Inis ko siyang pinanood na itaas na naman ang wipers ko. He was laughing as if enjoying what he's doing. Nakakainis!

Minutes passed pero hindi pa din siya umaalis,he was looking inside the campus,then look around as if waiting for someone. I saw him picked his phone from his pocket and dial. Halos tumalon ako sa gulat ng magring ang phone ko. Medyo nagmove ng konti ang kotse and when I look back at him he's walking towards the door of my car. I stiff when he knock on my window. Hindi ako gumalaw,but he keep on looking and knocking.

I prayed na sana umalis na siya so I can go home  pero ayaw talaga. My phone beeped,and when I. checked it.

Thirdy: I know ur there,open the door.

Hindi ko siya pinansin.

Thirdy: Bea open up!

Thirdy: Bea!

Thirdy: Bei

Thirdy : wtf Bea masosuffocate ka jan,buksan mo na!

Inis ko siyang nireplayan

Bea: Just put my wipers down and go away I wanna go home.

Thirdy: I wanna talk

Bea: I don't want to Thirdy,there's nothing to talk about just go away or else I'll stay and let myself  die.

When he saw the message he went in front of my car and put the wipers down before stepping aside,I saw that because I was looking at him. I take it as a sign umalis na. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sariling tingnan siya sa side mirror,medyo naguilty ako when I saw kung paano niya punasan ang pisngi niya.. punasan? Is he crying? Pigil hininga kong tinigil ang kotse ko. I can't make myself drive even if that's what my brain wants ko happen. I shouldn't be thinking about his confession. I should be moving on,I should stop myself from coming back again cause it will just cause something we wouldn't want. I should be staying away from him cause I can only cause him trouble.

But my hands  says otherwise. I just found myself driving back to where I parked earlier,where Thirdy's still standing. When I stopped in front of him,I just stare at him. Nakita kong dahan-dahan niyang tinaas ang ulo niya and I saw his face full of tears but eyes that reflects hope. I gulped and went out of my car. Wala akong sinayang na oras,I run towards him and hug him tight.

And that moment,I feel at home. For years I've been stopping myself from coming back,I was in denial,guess what Maddie's right after all,I still love this man,I never stop loving him. May takot pa rin but I am still hoping na magagawa ko pang ihanda ang sarili ko. Sa ngayon ang iisipin ko ay ito,kami,kami ngayon? Hindi ako sigurado pero Isa lang ang alam ko,mahal ko siya at hindi ko na maitatago pa.

I feel him tighten the hug. He place his face on my neck and I can feel some of his tears dropping on my neck. Before I knew it,I brush his hair with my fingers.