Killio or - "Kio" is a 6 foot tall, half Japanese male who recently graduated from Obelian Arts and Science Institute under the course Bachelor of Science in Architecture. He likes cooking. He's a big foodie. He likes reading and he definitely have...
lucille🔒 @secretlyra im so happy with kio rn. yung tipo ng saya na hindi ko inaasahan
lucille🔒 @secretlyra nakakatakot kasi bigla nalang kami naging ganito kasaya parang bigla bigla lang din babawiin sa amin
lucille🔒 @secretlyra pero shuta tadhana ilang taon ko na tong pinagdadasal pag bigyan niyo na kami
lucille🔒 @secretlyra mag eemote na sana ako ng biglang nag message si kio, huhu ano kau jan
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summer of fourth year, june
Hindi ko alam kung anong nilalang ang biglang sumapi kay Kio na bigla niya akong inaya pumunta sa dagat. We literally drove from Obelia to Belos para lang maka-kita ng dagat. It was already 9 PM when we reach Obelia and one of the public beach in here. Wala na ding masyadong tao sa lugar at tanging liwanag lang ng lamppost sa may kalayuan at buwan sa itim na langit ang nagsisilbi naming liwanag.
Kio and I just stood there while holding our slippers, medyo malayo kami sa dalampasigan para hindi kami maabot ng alon. Medyo maginaw na din dahil sa lakas ng hampas ng hangin.
"I visit here sometimes," biglang saad ni Kio. His voice sounded low, quite — almost sad na hindi ako nakasagot. I just keep staring at the horizon and the darkness beyond us while listening to the soothing sound of the waves. "When I felt tired and confused, I come here to rest my mind." I tilt my head to look at the guy standing beside me, na siya ding nakatingin sa akin ngayon. Bahagya akong nginitian ni Kio, yung ngiti na hindi ko mawari at maintindihan. I want to believe that Kio is happy, na masaya siya na nandito kami ngayon, na kasama niya ako — but his smile makes me doubt everything I thought I understood about him.
"Do you get tired often, Kio?" Wala sa sarili kong tanong. Kusa lang itong lumabas sa bibig ko dahil ngayon, mukhang pagod na pagod si Kio.
I can feel my chest tighten.
I can feel it. Like Kio is hiding something from me, like he's seeing something that I couldn't — and he's running away from something I will never know about.
"Oo," sagot niya. Nakangiti pa din si Kio. He's still smiling with that smile I couldn't quite make out.
"Madalas ka bang bumibisita dito?"
"Yeah, I come here often — it lessen when you came though."
Para akong hindi maka-hinga.
I look at Kio, and my eyes met that dark, dull and empty orbs of his. Kio makes me breathless, the way he looks at me makes my breath hitch often — and meeting his eyes right now makes my stomach churn, like Kio is seeing me in a light I couldn't imagine.
"..... Bakit?"
"Because I don't need to come here anymore when you makes me feel much better — when you make me feel free in a way no other things could."
Freedom. Killio keeps on talking about being free. Gusto ko siyang tanungin kung bakit. I want to ask him why he wanted to be free so badly and if he wants to be freed — what's keeping him from being free in the first place.
Pero hindi ko magawa. I think Kio and I is already at a stage where we could ask each other questions, where we could get to know each other a little better but — I couldn't.
Because I know that even if he would — I wouldn't be able to understand him.
And that scares me.
Kio sees a whole different world from the one I see, sees people in the light that I could never picture and I'm afraid that forcing myself to see the same world as him would stop him from feeling the freedom he feel with me.
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