Crazy With Love | M.Y.G FF ✔

8

The party ended on a higher note, after Courtney made Joon stop and buy us ice cream for having to put up with stuffy people who only wanted to talk business. It didn't completely make up for the boredom, or the annoyance of certain people we had to meet. However, it sure as hell was a nice start.
I was dropped off first, Yoongi being a gentleman walked me into my apartment building to say goodnight.

"Hope you sleep well, and I'll talk to you later." He said, turning on his heels but he stopped suddenly and tapped his cheek with his finger. I took that signal as him looking for a good night kiss on his cheek, and... I complied. Pressing my lips gently to his cheek, I lingered there for a few seconds before pulling away again. He smirked and nodded at me.
"Good Girl." He said smoothly in that husky voice of his, the one that made my thighs feel like they were on fire.

"Goodnight Mr. Min." I grinned. He chuckled a bit and waved as he headed off towards the entrance. I took the elevator back up to my apartment and I couldn't even get in the door before Deji and Liz were right there pulling me inside, barely letting me get my heels off.

"You have to tell us EVERYTHING." Liz demanded.

"All of it, no skimping out, who was at the party, how many numbers did you get, and can you bring me next time?" Deji grinned.

"Ha... ha... you're so cute. I'm not the one with the authority to let you come with us next time." I replied to Deji first.

"That's not important, how hot did your boss look and are you hitting that yet? Or... letting him hit it?" Liz asked, smirking.

"Oh my god... no, I'm not screwing my boss..."

"Yet." Deji interjected.

"No.. Not at all. He only gave me this job out of pity. Yes, he's hot... but he also seems very emotionally unavailable and not into the whole relationship thing... from what I gathered anyway. I don't think I feel anything more than lust for him, and even that I think is fueled by my missing sex... or the comforts of a man in general. So, it's not going to happen... Not unless the universe does a 180 and suddenly Min Yoongi wants a steady girlfriend." I almost laughed thinking about it.. I wasn't even sure what I felt for him, lust was definitely there though.... But that's all it might be.

"Never say never, that's all I'm gonna say." Liz said as she patted my head and made her way to her bedroom. Deji followed suit to her room, leaving me alone in the living room. I got up and turned off the lights and went to my room to grab pajamas. After a nice hot shower I laid in bed for a bit. Turning over eventually I welcomed another day, this one had been a bit overwhelming.

Two weeks passed, working with Yoongi wasn't that bad. We didn't talk much or see each other often, in fact I think I saw more of Namjoon than I had Yoongi. Week three of only texts or emails from Yoongi was starting, and so far, it was an annoying Monday.
Lunch was a saving grace.

"Is he not eating again?" I heard Courtney ask as she entered the back area from her normal receptionist desk, Namjoon was right behind her, hand on her waist as he led her in.

"He hasn't eaten today, he's been doing his usual hold up in his office. I told him he needs to blow off steam... He keeps holding it in though." Namjoon replied to her.

"That's not good at all. I wish he wasn't so stubborn." Courtney pouted a bit.

"I'm going to make him get a few sessions in, he needs it." Namjoon replied with a smirk. "Speaking of, I'll see you tonight? 8pm sharp?" He licked his lips at her and I swear I could see her blush. She nodded and giggled.

"Yes, Sir." She giggled again and Namjoon gave her ass a little spank as he grabbed a pre-made sandwich and headed out. She was blushing, there was no doubt in my mind on that one.

"Well now, I think someone needs to watch those videos on work etiquette again." I laughed. Courtney smiled.

"I'd insist he still continue to be that, even at work." Courtney grinned.

"Look at you being the blushing queen." I teased.

"Yep, proud of it. He gives me butterflies and tingling thighs." She giggled again, this time I laughed with her giggle.

"Nice one." I shook my head, still smiling. "So, Mr. Min's in grumpy mode?" I asked, bringing up what I'd heard from her conversation with Namjoon.

"Not grumpy, just in his zone. He gets like this now and then. He hasn't had a release from any of it in a long time. I don't even remember the last time he had even a visitor to his office." Courtney was thinking as she spoke.

"A visitor?" I asked. She smiled and nodded, grabbing a bottle of coke and a turkey sandwich. I came over and grabbed a turkey and swiss. We sat down and she started to explain more.

"Yeah, remember what I said before... about Yoongi and Namjoon living certain... lifestyles. Not your typical ones." Courtney started to explain as we ate. I nodded to her after taking a bite of my sandwich.
"Well... Both Namjoon and Yoongi got into the community here, you've at least heard of BDSM right? And like... the lifestyles within BDSM, communities of people who life said lifestyles?" She started to question, taking a bit of her sandwich.

"Yeah... well I mean, I've heard of it. But isn't it just like.. A sexual thing?" I asked, pausing to take a sip of my drink.

"No, not always. It depends on the person... or a couple... throuple... whatever. Namjoon got into it from a friend I guess. And the CEO has no problem with it, especially since the guys maintain themselves professionally and what they do in their private life is not his concern." She started. "The lifestyles are vast, some people live it 24/7, some are only into it for sexual release like you said, and others just live it part of the time. Or just on weekends."
She smiled. I tried to take in what she was saying... I'd been handcuffed before... had rough sex... got a bit kinky with certain objects but I didn't know what lifestyles she was pertaining to exactly.

"Okay... so, going to stop you for a minute. Cause all that you said is confusing.. Lifestyles? I am aware what BDSM is... Bondage, Dominance, Submission, Masochism, right? Something like that... not sure how someone would live that 24/7..." I said to her, taking another bite of my food.

"You're sort of right... about what BDSM is. It's deeper than that though. At it's core, it's about the bonds... not bondage, but the bonds you make with your session partners. Finding a good session partner is key. The guys joined the community so with that, they were able to sign up for the local community's website, to find session partners." She smiled. I thought about it for a second.

"Aren't you Namjoon's... uh.. Partner?" I asked, noting that the two seemed super close and I thought they were clearly dating, or at least fuck buddies. She blushed and giggled a bit.

"We are... kind of. I'm not his only partner, we have a third." She grinned and wiggled her brows at me. I was shocked a bit.

"So.. a poly relationship?" I asked.

"Namjoon is bi, and he's a Dominant through and through. He also has his daddy kinks and while I am okay with it and like being called his baby girl, even though I like the praises... I'm not able to provide everything he desires. But I also desire him to be fully satisfied, even if it's not with just me. Because of that desire of mine for him to be fully satisfied, he and the other in our relationship wanted me to be a part of their world... so to speak." She said.

"Oh, so Namjoon was already involved?" That bit surprised me.

"Mhm, his name is Jungkook, You'll see him around here actually. He's a singer, beautiful voice. It's hard to not fall for him." She sighed, a loving expression on her face.

"Wait.. so you... love them both?" I asked, intrigued.

"Yeah. Kookie was open to a third, he himself is bi so both agreed it should be a female. And... well here I am. Maybe one day I'll get into all the horny details, but for now that's what you get." She grinned. "Just know that Yoongi has his own likes, he's part of the community, and he use to have sessions with girls he'd meet at munches or through the community, but he hasn't had a session in a while and so, it's pent up... it's not good to let it bottle up like that." She insisted. "Especially for someone like him who's been used to a 24/7 TPE lifestyle." She finished, taking a sip of her drink.

"T..P... what?" I questioned. She just laughed and got up, throwing her trash away before heading for the door.

"Google is your best friend... or, you could just ask him." She smirked and went back to her desk out in the hall. I sat there for a bit longer, sipping my drink and letting all this information she dropped on me settle in. There was still so much I was confused about...Maybe google was my friend on this one.
Back at my desk, I decided to use the internet. Was it probably a really bad idea to look things up on my work computer? Yes. Would I probably get caught later and regret this lovely choice of mine? Yes. Was I going to stop now before I even start to save myself from those embarrassments? No... no I wasn't.


Google: What is BDSM?

Search results flooded the monitor. Like... flooded. But, right there at the top, in huge bold letters... it was there.
Bondage and Discipline, Dominance and Submission, Sadochism and Masochism

Okay, this seemed easy enough. But what the fuck did this shit mean?
I checked out a healthy sex article, there were some articles on roles, types, things and words I'd never fucking seen before.
But it wasn't just bedroom stuff. I found a few fetish sites to be helpful in providing more detail on the lifestyles. Some delving into the roles and choosing a partner. Submissives, Dominants, the sub categories of each, there were so many possibilities, so many things.

I remembered what Courtney has said... and I looked it up.

Google: What is TPE?

The results made me laugh for a minute, I guess even google was stumped. So, I tried another search.

Google: What is TPE in BDSM?

This time, the results were more on the level I was looking for. The Urban dictionary wasn't exactly being very.... Well informed but I clicked a link on the 'bad Girl's bible' and that looked way more knowledgeable from what I could tell.
TPE was apparently a very special relationship, this site also called it the ultimate lifestyle relationship as this.. TPE, which, who knew- Stood for Total Power Exchange. Apparently, according to this information, it's not an easy lifestyle to live as it requires 100% trust between the Dominant and the Submissive 24/7. This wasn't an 'Only in the bedroom' lifestyle.
I looked up another site that had women and men accounting their experiences with their TPE relationships. Some of these submissive men and women seemed to really love the lifestyle. Things they described about themselves rang all too familiar to me.

"I hated making decisions in my everyday life before I met my Mistress" - One commenter wrote.

"When he makes the decisions for me, it's freeing. It's also a turn on how he just... knows. It's not that he does everything for me his way. He knows the things I like and he takes that into consideration when he makes the decision. It's not that our opinions don't matter, it's that he is in control and it's freeing for us who are no good at those kind of things." Another commenter wrote.

It was very interesting to read the experiences of others, and see similarities. I wanted to delve more into this. I found videos on the subject too, just everyday videos of these TPE couples living. One male and male combo showed the Dominant leaving for work, the Submissive male packing the Dominants lunch, then going about his day. His Dominant left clean clothes on the bed in their room for him, he also left shopping money and a list of groceries. It was interesting to see this was all pretty normal things in like.. A couple. Maybe not everyone's significant other picks out their clothes for them, but it's close enough.

I researched for a good two hours without knowing it. Courtney came in to check on me and without looking up from my computer I started to speak to her.

"Did you know, in TPE relationships the Dominant has the right to revoke a safe word, but in doing that takes on more responsibility and the submissive is giving over complete trust? That's... intense.." I randomly spoke. Courtney stopped and looked at me, when I finally looked up I noticed she wasn't standing there alone. Namjoon was right next to her, one arm across his chest while his other hand was up and covering his mouth- Clearly he was trying not to laugh... but the look of amusement was clear on his face.
My face, most likely was as red as damn tomato... or a beet, I didn't have a mirror on me to check.

"Uh..." Courtney tried to say something, but she just started to laugh. Great...

"Interesting reading going on, hm?" Namjoon smirked. He looked at Courtney and grinned. "You teaching the newbie new tricks, baby girl?" She looked up at him as he spoke and blushed.

"No.. no Sir, it's just that she asked, and so... I might have given her a bit of info." She seemed to say pleadingly. He patted her head and then walked over to the drink machine and got a cold drink.

"Just don't get too carried away. Work first, little miss curious." He chuckled as he looked at me. I nodded, biting my bottom lip a bit before opening up emails again. Namjoon left and Courtney came over."He's not that strict, like I said... but, just a heads up... Mr. Min will probably hear about this conversation from Namjoon. Like I said, they're both Dominant. Namjoon respects Yoongi on many levels, Yoongi hired you, so you're his responsibility. Namjoon respects that and will let him know because to both of them... it's their business what we talk about and do." She smiled. "I wouldn't worry though, I'm sure Yoongi's well aware of your virgin self when it comes to these kind of things." She giggled and patted my shoulder."Your words of comfort need work." I replied as I put my head in my hands for a moment. Courtney returned to her work out in the hall and once I got myself a cold bottle of water... I got back to finishing up my work for the day. As usual, once work was over I headed home, once again being picked up by one of the company cars and drivers. I was home before Liz and Deji, when the two came giggling in with bags of food, I made grabby hands."Aw, if our little piper isn't a hungry one huh?" Deji teased. "How was work?" Liz asked as she started to unpack the food- Korean fried chicken with all the fixings. Deji grabbed three plates. I thought about asking them about the uh... things I'd learned at work, but something told me it wasn't the right time to have that conversation with them. After dinner we showered one at a time and watched a little TV before I left them to head to bed. Oddly enough, no message from Yoongi tonight. Maybe he was still held up in his office, Namjoon and Courtney said he can lock himself in there for days.I wanted to know more about the things that made Yoongi tick... maybe I was little miss curious.