In The Fight To Survive (Golden Trio Era) {4}

Choices and Crushes

Mikayla collapses on to the bed next to Fred, the pair of them panting while their bodies glistened with post-sex sweat. "If you want to be on top more often, I won't argue against it." Fred comments as he blows out a breath, turning his head to face his orgasm hazed girlfriend. Mikayla jokingly rolls her eyes as she looks over at Fred, "mmm, I'll consider it." Mikayla whispers with a massive grin on her face, she rolls over onto her side, resting her hand on Fred's chest. Her fingertips began gently caressing his torso as she rests her head on his shoulder.

"I'm going to miss this..." Mikayla admitted as her eyes got lost in Fred's, there was an airiness to her voice as if she's oblivious to the seriousness behind the conversation she just began. "What having sex with me?" Fred joked trying to keep the mood light because he knew what Mikayla had originally meant. "Well yes, but mostly the after. Just getting to watch you calm down after the best sex of your life." Mikayla smirked, making Fred chuckle. "I'm mostly kidding. I'm going miss not seeing you everyday. I don't know how I survived the school year...  six weeks feels so long from now." Mikayla commented as she softly left kisses along Fred jaw and collarbone.

"six weeks?" Fred questions, as far as he knew they wouldn't see each other until the final battle in May of next year. Mikayla hummed lowly as she collected her thoughts, "You asked me a couple of weeks ago, when I first told you my plans, if there would be any way that we could see each other before the final fight." Fred was silent, not wanting to miss a word that leaves Mikayla's mouth, as it was clear that she'd change her mind if she doesn't voice all her thoughts. "So I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and realised that I would just be playing martyr, and get myself killed."

The blonde paused when she felt Fred tense beneath her head, she took a deep breath as she found her next words that would hopefully relax her boyfriend. "And I don't want to. I've promised a lot of people that I would take care of myself before focusing on anything/anyone else, and evidently I'm terrible at it, if the past couple of weeks are any indicator." Mikayla sighed quietly, she still struggled with learning to ask for help and putting herself before the movement. "And I've decided that it's not safe for me to completely isolated from my loved ones, despite my undying urge to disappear into the night and fight alone to protect you all, because I rarely know what to do."

Fred smiled at his girlfriend's decision, but still not utter a word as he knew she needed him just to listen first. "Like I've always had help, always had someone looking out for me and covering my back. Alone I'm not as dangerous to them and I'm usually the opposite of calm. The last thing I want is to have an Anxietas episode in the middle of a duel, especially now that Fergal is free. He knows all my triggers, hell he created most of them." Fred's fingers began moving up and down Mikayla's spine to keep her relaxed as she began to get wound up.

"I um, last night I sealed everyone's mind from being read by a Legilimens. And I'm going to give all of my family the address of the Carra Estate. That's where my headquarters will be. I escape the Death Eaters on September 2nd, no one is to come looking for me during that time. And I'd like you all to give me two weeks alone to piece myself back together before you all start showing up, I'll send a Patronus out once I'm ready. Oh and everyone is to send their Patronus to me first to give me some kind of warning that they're visiting. It's risky I know, but I ran through so many scenarios in my head and it seems the least loneliest and safest strategy."

Mikayla concluded her rambles and waited quietly for Fred's reaction, she hoped that he would be too mad with her for sealing everyone's minds. She hadn't gotten any of their consent to do it, and she felt terrible about it, but it was the only practical solution that would protect them all as well as herself. "That's... the best news I've ever heard. Are you being serious? Do you promise that you won't disappear?" Mikayla saw the sheer joy on her boyfriend's face, he was glowing and couldn't help but brighten up herself.