Loving the Playboy Idol [SB19 - Joshtin AU]

Chapter 39

STELL

Umiiyak kaming lahat habang pinagmamasdan ang pagyayakapan ni tita Gemma at Pau. We had no clue that Justin is going through this much.  Hindi namin alam na ganito na pala ang pasan pasan niya, maging ni Pau.

Napakasama namin para pag isipan sila ng kung ano ano. We didn't know. We're sorry we didn't know.

I was so shocked when Dr. Carlos told us what is going on to Justin. He's too young. He has so much dreams that haven't fulfilled yet. He has a long way to go. We never saw this coming. Hindi kami handa para dito.

Why Justin? Why him??

He's our kindest and sweetest bunso.Why does he have to go through this? Why??

Tita Gemma decided na pauwiin muna kaming apat. She said na sila na ang bahala kay Justin. She told us that we should rest as well.

Ayaw man namin na umalis, wala na rin kaming nagawa kundi ang sumunod.

Bagsak ang balikat ng kami'y lumabas. Our eyes were swollen especially Pau's.

Nagpaalam na si Ken at Josh. Nauna na silang umalis.

Naiwan kaming dalawa ni Pau.

I called him. "Pau..."

Hindi ito sumagot.

"Pau..."

"Pau..." I tapped his shoulder. Nagulat ito. He's drowning in his deep thoughts.

"H-Hah?" lumingon ito sa akin. Pawang kalungkutan ang makikita sa mata nito.

"Are you going home?" I asked.

Nag isip muna ito ng ilang minuto bago sumagot.

"Can I stay over at your condo tonight?" tanong nito.

"Y-Yeah sure." mas mabuti na rin siguro na magkasama kami. Na may kasama si Pau.

Nakarating kami sa condo. Walang nagsasalita sa amin. Dumiretso si Pau sa kwarto. Madaming beses na syang nakitulog dito. Most of the time, he sleep here after our shows or events.

I saw him sitting on the edge of the bed. His eyes were blank.

"Pau... Do you want to take a shower? I'll prepare your clothes." I said.

Marami si Pau na damit dito. May sarili na rin itong closet sa cabinet ko. Actually silang apat. Kasi madalas, dito sila nagssleep over lahat.

Pau stand up and do what I said. Parang robot siyang sumunod sa sinabi ko. Hindi ako sanay na ganito siya. Napakadaldal niya lalo na pag magkasama kami. People may say that Pau is so strict and serious but for me, he's not.

Marami siyang palaging kwento, madaming hirit at banat. Pati mga jokes na corny, hindi nawawalan si Pau. Justin's state really had a huge impact on Pau. I can't blame him. Alam niya all throughout kung anong pinagdadaanan nito. He was there. He was with him on Justin's downfall. He saw how Jah's health deteriorate slowly. And even pinagdudahan na namin siya, sila, they still choose to understand our feelings.

I feel so guilty for everything. I wish I knew. I wish I knew what they were going through. Sana manlang nakatulong ako.

Matapos ni Pau magshower ay dumiretso na ito sa kama. He tucked in the blanket and I never hear a word.

I also took a shower and put on a clean clothes. I lay down beside Pau.

Hindi agad ako nakatulog. Gising na gising ang diwa ko.

Narinig ko ang mahinang paghikbi ni Pau. He's crying again. Nakatalikod ito sakin. I hugged him from behind pero hindi ako nagsalita.

I just want him to feel na i'm here for him. For them. That I also feel kung ano yung nararamdaman niya ngayon.

Ang kaninang mahinang paghikbi'y napalitan ng malakas na pag iyak.

Pakiramdam ko'y tila binabasag ang puso ko habang nakikita si Pau na ganito. It's really painful when you see your loved one like this. It felt like you share the same pain.

Lalo na kapag yung taong yun ay alam mong laging matatag sa kahit anong pagsubok, then you saw him breakdown and be at it's lowest.

I stayed hugging him for a while until Pau falls asleep.

It's good that he did. Parang wala pa kasi itong maayos na tulog. He's tired. Hindi man niya sabihin pero katawan niya na mismo ang nagpapaalala na kailangan din nito ng pahinga.

I watch him sleep hanggang sa makatulog na din ako.

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