Loving the Playboy Idol [SB19 - Joshtin AU]

Chapter 44

PABLO

Two weeks had already passed. It feels like it happened in a blink of an eye. Nakauwi na si Jah at Josh sa kani kanilang bahay. They need to rest at home. Without seeing each other.

You guys don't have any idea how Josh throw tantrums on Dr. Carlos ng malaman nito na kailangan nilang magpahinga for about a month. Which means hindi sila pwedeng lumabas ng bahay maliban kung sa clinic pupunta. They both need bed rest. So ibig sabihin din, hindi sila magkikita ni Jah ng halos isang buwan.

The three of us laughed hysterically habang pinapanood si Josh na nagmamaktol kay Doc at kay tita Aldrene. I still remember what he said,

"Dapat pala hindi nyo nalang kami dinischarge. Para magkasama pa din kami dito ni Justin."

Hindi ko mapigilang hindi matawa sa twing naaalala ko ang mukha ni Josh na nakahaba ang nguso. Ang arte. Hahaha.

On the other hand, Ken, Stell, and I also have a lot on our hands. The management talked to me last time. Tinanong nila ako kung kaya ba daw namin magkaroon ng concert maybe after two months matapos madischarge nina Jah at Josh kasi they've been hearing a lot already from our fans. But I haven't said yes yet. Kailangan ko munang makausap ang mga kagrupo ko. I need to consider their side as well especially the health of the two. Kung kaya na nila after a month na makapagpractice, then we're go. May isang buwan pa namang matitira before the 'supposed' concert.

Nag lalive paminsan minsan si Stell sa mga social media accounts nito para pagaanin ang loob ng mga A'tin. To gave them assurance that everything is okay and to tell them that nagrerest lang kami.

Ken sometimes do live stream too on it's own gaming page. Wala man itong binabanggit about saming lima, sapat na ang presensya nito para pakalmahin ang mga fans. Si Ken pa. Paborito ng lahat. Haha.

While me, madalang akong tumambay sa socmeds ko. Pero di ibig sabihin wala na akong ginagawa. I have a lot too. I am writing new song and I am also helping my brother on his own endeavor. Binibisita ko din minsan si Jah at Josh.

Nakwento na sa akin ni Jah kung paano naging sila ni Josh. I'm happy for them. Especially kay Justin.

His unrequited love is not unrequited anymore. Nasuklian na ito. Sana lang talaga hindi siya saktan ni Josh cause if he did, pababalikin ko siya sa pagiging unconscious. Joke lang. Haha.

Alam ko naman na nagbago na si Josh. I can feel it. Si Justin lang pala makakapagtino sa mokong na yun eh. Hays.

Kami ni Stell? I had no idea.

After nung nasa Palawan kami, hindi na namin napag usapan muli ni Stell ang tungkol sa amin. I'm scared to open it up. What if nabigla lang pala si Stell kaya gumanti ito sa halik ko? What if nadala lang ng emotions? Nang sitwasyon??

I know I told myself na hindi na ko maghahangad pa ng mas higit kesa sa friendship pero people really is greedy. At hindi ako nakaligtas doon. I  am wanting more. Higit na sa pagkakaibigan ang gusto ko. Pero natatakot akong baka ako lang pala ang may gusto ng mas higit. Paano kung mas prefer ni Stell na magkaibigan lang kami? Being rejected is painful. I don't want to experience that.

Hindi ko na siguro dapat banggitin pa ang tungkol dun. Baka maging awkward lang ang lahat sa pagitan namin kapag hindi naman pala kami parehas ng nararamdaman.

Maybe I should just focus on creating and thinking ideas for our group to improved. Nasa isip ko na rin kasi ang mag solo debut though hindi pa siya ganun ka concrete sa utak ko but the song itself that I want to release is matagal ng tapos.

Nagpaparamdam din si Ken na he wants to have his solo already. Pero I advice him to think about it more kung gusto na niya talaga. I wasn't questioning his skills because I know what he can do. He has a lot to offer, I know that. Isa ako sa mga taong matiyagang pinupush hindi lang siya kundi silang lahat to be best of themselves. No need to compete. Being the best version of yourself is enough. Palagi ko yung sinasabi sa kanila.

Siguro, I'll just maintain my position as their leader. It's hard to ask for more.

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