Without You

Chapter 19

Laura POV
I left school early today. I just couldn't help myself. I couldn't stop crying or zoning out thinking about Ross and I.

I enter the apartment closing the door harshly causing my bag too fall down my shoulder. "Ugh" I groan.

Vanessa looks over to me in a "Sh I'm trying to sleep one of the babies! Could you just shut your freakin banging."

I see her and smile embarrassedly. She gets up and lays the baby down in one of the cribs. She hasn't even named them.

"Sit." she commanded,
"What's wrong?"

I shook my head no.

"Laura I know you. I know something is wrong with you."

"I just don't want to talk about it."

"Tell me. Wait is about you and Ross breaking up?" she asked.

I looked at her confused and then say,"How do you know?"

"Riker told me. Why would you do that?"

"I can't tell you."

"Laura I thought you hated that guy."

"I-I... don't"

"Laura what about what he did to you?"

"I forgave him."

"Laura you love Ross."

"No! I lied all this time. I never stopped thinking about him." I lied.

"Your being so unfair with him. He loves you so much."

"Who are you to talk?! First of all your getting married with someone you don't love just to give your daughters a stupid last name!" I screamed to her. She slapped me and I just looked down shyly.

"How do you know I don't love him?" she asked.

"Oh cause obviously you don't. Why can't you not marry him and just give him the last name Marano."

"Cause I want them to have a father."

"Go back with Jason then. He technically is the real father."

"No he hurt me-" I interrupted her and said," And he hurt me. a All this time I've been with him terrible things have happened to me."

"And you think being with Chris is gonna help you." she crossed her arms.

"You should have heard what he called me. He called me a slut." I felt a tear run down my face.

"Well Laura I don't blame him you did go back with your ex."

I ignore her and run out of the apartment grabbing my bag, car, and coat.

I ran to my car and just get in without knowing where I was going.
...
I finally arrives wherever I wanted to go to. And it was the cemetery where my mother was buried. At the entrance of the cemetery is a store with flowers. I pass by to get a bouquet of roses.

I walk over to my mothers grave. I sit down and look at it.

I began to cry. I throw myself to the floor landing on my knees. The tears fall onto my mothers grave.

"Mom. Oh mom how I miss you. I need you right now. My life is a disaster..." I was going to continue but someone tapped my shoulder.

I turn around and see my dad.

"Dad what are you doing here."

"Came to visit your mom." he answered.

"I don't understand why. Look could you leave me alone and my mom too."