Sadist lover ~changjin

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"All these boys full of shit

Changbin felt so stupid and it hurt for hyunjin to make him feel like this he should have known better then to trust him who was he kidding did he actually think hyunjin would only belong to him

And he was silly enough to say it back when in reality all hyunjin wanted was to get his dick wet he felt so useless he let hyunjin in over and over again he put down his walls for him and what did he give him in return nothing but pain

What was there left to live for all everyone that he ever had come in contact with in his entire life was use him from age 16 to now he has been used, raped, abused, and threw to the side as if he was nothing so why did he think he could actually have something why did he think some one would actually like him why did life hate him this much

He would never get to experience he should have known better a liar that's all hyunjin was a fucking liar but he fell for it every time. He believed every word everything he had ever said so gullible always so fucking gullible

He had no fight left him changbin had tried his best to avoid drugs all his life but what was he supposed to do now when that was the only thing that numbed the pain when he could get so high to the point that he blacked out and couldn't remember anything

It felt amazing he could scratchy at his arm until he bleed out all of his pain but it would always come back when the wound heald but why was his body healing but not his heart hyunjin did this so why was he pretending to be the victim it hurts to love someone and they not love you back

" how did you know you love him?"

"Huh?"

"Felix how did you know he was the one you want spend your life with "

" i can't answer that me and Felix aren't perfect"

" what do you mean ?"

" he cheats on me changbin you think we are perfect but it hurts everyday nobody knows what goes on we argue every day to the point we slam doors in each other's face he walks out on me when he gets frustrated "

Changbin was shocked hearing all of this was this actually happening and no one knew

" you both cover it up so well I wouldn't know"

" I don't want my son to grow up seeing his parents argue all the time so Felix's takes him to his grandmas house we aren't perfect but love isn't perfect bin and we can't force it to be"

" I know that "

" but besides that how are you and that boy toy of yours what was his name again Hyunjin!!!"

" he's a bastard and a fucking liar"

" huh already what did he do?"

" he has one to many girls/boys and I can't do it anymore he plays games with my mind and acts like the victim"

" so he treats you like shit is basically what your saying just say the words and I'll beat his ass for you "

" I don't want you to know him "

" and why not ?"

" it's because I don't think he will be in my life that long and it will be a waste for you to know him your important to me I love you but him I'm not sure what we are he doesn't know what he wants but I run back to him every time it hurts because he confuses me whenever I think we actually have something together he goes and does some dumb shit but I trust him with my life but not my heart "

"I love you bin but I don't want you in that situation he plays with you and no one is going to do that to you he is toxic and I will cook him alive if you guys decide that you want to be together I support your decision I'm here for you always"

Changbin laughed at the girls word before giving a her hug as they both got up from the bench to continue there walk around the park