Freaks - an MCYT high school AU fanfiction

Chapter 40: Impulse

What the f*** have I just done? 

I don't move. 

I don't look down.

I can't do anything except just stand here, on top of the flight platform. 

I just killed someone else. 

Oh.

F***.

'Impulse?' 

It's sheer luck that stops me from falling off the platform when Skizz suddenly speaks from behind me. I turn, wishing I could disappear. 

'What?' 

'He's not dead.' 

My mind scrambles for an answer. 

'How?'

'I... I don't know. I tried to catch him with the water... just come down.' Instead I stare down at the ground far below. But if Grian and Martyn survived... 

'Don't you dare.'

'You can't stop me.' 

Skizz grabs my arm, and pulls me into a hug. 

'You're not jumping off here.' He mutters. 'You're my best friend and you've survived so much.' 

'I can't do this.'

'You can. Come on, buddy.' Skizz leads me towards the ladder, and I begin climbing down, hands shaking so much I stop halfway, take a deep breath, and continue.

My feet hit the ground and I look around. Tango's run over. 

'Impulse, thank notch... what happened?'

'I don't want to talk about it. I'm going back inside.' Just as I start walking off, people start whispering, and someone speaks to me. 

'Impulse?' It's Jimmy. Not a threat, but I still walk fast. 'What did you do?'

'He doesn't want to talk.' Skizz replies. 

'Why did you try to kill Martyn?' 

'Listen to Skizz, he doesn't want to talk about it.' Tango joins in.

'No, stop this. Martyn's being taken inside by Bad- by the medics, unconscious. So you're telling me, and you're telling me now.'

'JUST F*** OFF!' 

I don't realise I've shouted until everyone's staring at me. Terror. Anger. Surprise. And then muttering. Constantly muttering. Jimmy glares at me.

'You're a monster.' 

My lip trembles, my stomach twists, and it's impossible to hold back a sob. 

'I know.'

'Jimmy, I swear if you don't shut up, I'm going to kill you.' Skizz snarls, only held back my an equally unhappy Tango. 

'We're not having any murder here.' Xisuma snaps suddenly, walking over. 'Jimmy, Skizz, stop arguing. Everyone else, class is dismissed.' 

'What about Martyn?'

'Martyn's fine. I promise.' He adds as Scott doesn't accept his first sentence.

'Jimmy, let's go.' 

I'm prepare to run off with everyone else, blinking back tears as I walk towards the exit. Someone pushes past me, I think someone calls me a jerk, and even worse. 

'Impulse, can you help me pack some of the stuff away?' 

I turn. Skizz and Tango turn with me. 

'Impulse needs time alone.' The former replies.