My problems (vent)

Talking about vents

As how the following writing says I want to be a psychologist/therapist so if you feel like you need it please comment here or wait till end to write in the ending messege to vent about your own problems related to this theme or not.

Todas i was pretty sad because of my dad to which i think is manipulating me so i put on a compilation of vent tiktoks just to feel that I'm not alone and that there are other people that have it worse I can also help instead of being in a freaking cage for 18 hours (aka my room and another room in my house I spend the day in-)

Then the question came to my mind.. What is it that I want to be a psychologist/therapist?

Many answers came to mind but I felt like none of them where worth it or valuable opinions to be considered answers, I was thinking that while zoning out keeping the video in play then a certain audio from a music I was mentally singing along to caught my attention back to the video

That video was like 1/6 out of the answer to my question, it showed a vent to how a person was dealing from neglect from their parental figure to which I related to one phrase in specific that made me think that it was part of my answer

"I'll give you a reason to cry"

My father used that phrase on me that just ended up leading to me bottling up my emotions thinking they were "not a reason to cry" about (Not healthy-) since I was in 3rd grade, OF PRIMARY SCHOOL. Following of this he would spank me once or twice if he got too mad

It all always had to do with homework, he would say he'd "help me" (reason of why I refuse help no matter how hard it is) to finish it easier, when he asked me the question that was in the book that I couldn't get over the fear of getting spanked kicked in and as a kid I never could grew up from I started to cry which only made him angrier and angrier

"What is 16cm in cm2?" "I- don't-... Know" "how do you not know!" "Why. Are you. Crying" "I don't know!" "You really want to cry!?","i'll give you a reason to cry!" *slam*

I'm not sure how it's gonna go but I'm sure that I'll give my best efforts to help people overcome these kinds of things in the future.. You can also vent right here if you feel comfortable doing so and I'll listen and help you.