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Chapter 10

*dont expect an update from me for awhile. I've given you 3 chapters in the past like 5 hours so hush*

TROYES POV

I started down the stairs to grab the Nutella from the kitchen. Knowing exactly where it's located, I quickly grabbed the 3 jars from the cupboard and quietly made my way up the stairs.

I decided it'd be fun the scare this shit out of Connor and Tyler, so I tip-toed to Connors bedroom. That's when I heard them talking.

"You can't tell Troye" I heard Connors raspy voice speak up. Can't tell me what?

Immediately I forgot about all plans of scaring them and focused on ease dropping in on their conversation

"So, last night I couldn't sleep. and the reason for that being, I was thinking. Thinking about what you said earlier to me in the hall." Connor paused. "I mean I really thought about it"

So that's why Connor couldn't sleep. He was thinking about whatever Tyler said to him. But what was it?

"And?" Tyler asked, trying to rush Connor, probably so I would walk in on them. Oops.

"And I think you're right." Connor paused. "I think I like Troye. Like really like Troye."

My eyes widened and my heart started to beat rapidly. Connor likes me? Connor likes me!

My joyous thoughts were then interrupted with confusion.

Why?

Why does Connor like me? I'm a mess. I have no friends, other than him and maybe Tyler. I've been bullied. I've been a dick to him since 5th grade.

"TOLD YOU SO!" Tyler yelled, ruining my moment of inquiry. "Mamas never wrong" he chuckled, having pride in himself. "So what made you finally realize that I was right?"

Finally, my questions were going to be answered.

"To be honest? I don't know. Everything really. His smile, his laugh, his eyes. Oh god, have you seen his eyes?"

A big smile formed on my face as he continued.

"I get lost in them every time I look at him. Not to mention he looks incredibly cute when he's sleeping." I chuckled at the though of last night, Connor clearly making it obvious he was watching me rather than the movie itself.

"Tyler, I really fucking like Troye." My heart couldn't take it, I began shaking with excitement; and before I knew it, I dropped a jar of Nutella and It tumbled down the stairs.

Tyler was about to say something, but stopped when they heard the Nutella drop. "We'll continue this later"

I waltzed into the room, unable to hide my smile. "I had three, but I dropped one and now it's at the bottom of the stairs. Sorry"

"It looks like you've received the best news of your life, Troye. What's with the smile?" Tyler inquired, noticing my smile plastered across my face.

"Oh, I was talking with Nicola and Dustin downstairs. They're really funny, Con" I lied, taking my spot next to him.

"Alright - anyways, are we going to play 20 questions or not?" A mixture of cheers came from Connor and I as our way of saying yes. "Okay this is how it's going to work. We each take turns asking a question, and everybody else has to answer it truthfully. No if and buts about it. We keep going until we get bored. Okay?"

"Sounds easy enough. I'll go first. Tumblr or Twitter?" I rolled my eyes. Does this even count as a question? It's literally the easiest thing ever.

"Tumblr" I said, Tyler nodding his head in agreement.

-

The game was actually pretty fun. I got to learn a lot more about Connor and Tyler both. I even got to catch up on small details of Connors life. Details that I missed in the past 7 years.

"Okay okay. My turn!" I yelled, clearly excited for my next question. "Hmmm. Do you have a crush? If so, describe them" I smirked and looked over to Connor, whose face was Crimson.

"Eh-I mean. Yeah" Connor breathed. "Yeah I have a crush. He um - he goes to our school. He's really fucking cute. Like extremely cute. And I just - I don't know how to describe him. I guess if I had to describe him in one word, it'd be mysterious."

I smiled, it was difficult not to say anything. I wanted to blurt out the fact that i knew who he liked. That I knew he liked me. But I just kept it to myself and turned to Tyler - pretending to listen to what he was saying, when in reality I was thinking about what Connor just said.

He called me cute. The entire fact itself is enough to make my heart start beating rapidly.

I studied Connor as he was listening to Tyler. His eyes were a beautiful shade of green, very unique. There was something about him that didn't make me want to look away. But I knew I had to.

"Troye?" A familiar voice questioned. The voice belonged to the single person I've been thinking about for the past ten minutes.

"Are you going to answer or not?" I widened my eyes, realizing that I was zoning out once again.

"Erm... What was the question again?" I asked, embarrassed that I wasn't paying attention. Connor just laughed it off and repeated the question.

"What's something you regret?"

I needed no time to think, because I immediately knew my answer.

"Loosing you as a friend" Connor blushed at my words.

"Awe Troye boy. That was sweet"

"Yeah yeah yeah. Alright, my turn." I smirked. "What's your favorite pickup line?"

Tyler perked up at my question and immediately answered "kiss me of I'm wrong, but dinosaurs still exist, right?" Connor and I both exchanged looks and immediately erupted into a fit of laughter.

"See, I don't really like pickup lines." Connor started "see, I think the way to somebody's heart is to actually talk to them. Be sweet. Be open. Be honest." He smiled.

"Perhaps you could give us an example?" Tyler asked, raising his eyebrow.

"I'm not su-"

"Come on, Con!" I pleaded, wanting to hear this.

"Fine" he breathed. "I mean- I feel like that if you really want to win somebody over, you'd say something like 'I know this sounds weird, I know what I'm doing is completely ludicrous, but hear me out. You - you seem like the person who'd complete me. Make me a better me. You're the person I've been missing, and now that you're here - I don't want to lose you.... again' and yeah" he finished. Clearly out of words.

The entire time. The entire fucking time he was staring right at me.

Almost as if his words, his sweet and loving words, were directed towards me. My heart couldn't help but skip a beat at the thought of it.

-

"Shit, I'm hungry as fuck" I muttered as my stomach let out a groan. "Connnnnnnor" I whined "can we make dinnerrrrrrrrr?"

Connor shook his head and started laughing. "I suppose so. Tyler left so not I'm bored as fuck. What do you want to make?"

"It's your house. You choose"

"Fine. But I want dessert instead. How does cake sound?"

"It sound like a lot of hard work and effort. But cake is seriously yum, so I guess I'm up for it"

"K cool. Leggo!" He called, running out of his room and towards the kitchen.

Honestly, This bout is going to be the death of me.