ambivalent • a tronnor au ✔️

Chapter 18

I was on writers block so I just thought I'd skip the days leading up to troyes departure okay bye

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*END OF THE MONTH*

My alarm was blaring, but I couldn't bring myself to turn it off.  Not today.

Today is the day I've been dreading for the past month. Today is Troye's last full day in America – He leaves tomorrow.

Within the past month, the Mellets have returned, which means Troye had, as well, gone back to him home. He had to pack up everything for Australia, after all.

Every day I wake, praying and hoping that this had all been a dream – which Troye wasn't really going to move. Yet, nothing about this is a dream, It's all reality – it's all happening.

I finally get dressed, wearing a green t-shirt and the gray beanie Troye loves so much.  My family knows better than to talk to me today, I wanted to spend as much time with Troye as possible and I couldn't let them get in the way of that.

I felt a vibration in my pocket as I started my car, signaling I received a text from none other than Troye.

From: Tro <3

Hey Connie! I'm ready whenever. I'm thinking we hit the mall today?

I smile at my phone before directing my eyes back onto the road.  I quickly tapped the voice texting and replied back (don't text and drive, kids)

"sure! Anything specific you need?"

I double checked to make sure my siri picked up what I said before I sent it. I feel like Troye was waiting for my reply, because seconds later, as I pulled into his driveway, I received another text from him.

Yeah. I gotta run by the engraving store. I need to pick up this engraved picture frame for my Nana.

I decided to not reply to his text and just walk up to his front door. Once I started to knock, the sudden reality of what was happening today hit me.

This will be the last time I ever knock on this front door. The last time I'll ever pick Troye up. The last day I'll spend with him. And that was too much to lose.

"Con? What's wrong?" The Australian voice that I learned to fancy so much called. "You alright?"

"Well- no." I replied softly, telling the truth. "I'm not okay. This is your last full day in America, Troye! You're leaving tomorrow morning!" I bit my tongue, trying to hold back my tears. "I- ugh- It's not fair" I whimpered, Trying not to  make this moment all sad and sappy.

"Shhh" Troye wrapped me into a hug. "I know, but we'll see each other again, I'm sure of it."

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Time goes by quickly when you're having the time of your life.

"Holy shit, Troye! We've been here for 4 hours! We haven't even gotten to the Engraving store yet!" Troye and I went in and out of every store inside of the mall – Including Victorias Secret. We've been in and out of almost 70 stores, and we're not even halfway through the mall.

"Okay, okay. How about we split. I head to the engraving store, you order us some Panda Express because holy shit, am I hungry." The corners of my mouth lifted as he mentioned Panda Express. I nodded in agreement and turned my heels, making my way to the famous Chinese fast food.