ambivalent • a tronnor au ✔️

Chapter 21

My heart started to beat faster and faster at the sound of the voice.

"Hi" it repeated, shaking me out of my state of shock. This wasn't happening. This was a dream, right?

"T-troye?" I questioned, wanting to make sure it was really him who was sitting on my bed moments ago. If it was really the Troye I loved.

"Hey Connie" he laughed, walking towards me.

"Pinch me. I'm dreaming" I breathed out, still not believing a single thing that was happening.

"But you're not, Connor. It's me. It's really me" he giggled out, somehow thinking this was all funny.

Tears started to form in my eyes. Not tears of sadness, like my previous ones, but tears of happiness. Then, I ran.

I ran as fast as I could into Troyes arms. "It's really you" I cried out, tightening my grip around him. "Troye boy it's really you" my face dug into his neck. Everything about this moment was perfect.

"It is Connor"

"But- but how? I thought I lost you. I thought you left me forever and I'd never be able to see you again. I thought I lost everything, Troye. Because I'm nothing without you"

"Last week, my mom got a call as we were packing our bags. My Nana- she um - she passed away"

"Troye I'm so sorry"

"But that's not all. Since my Nana passed away, there was no point for us to move back to Australia. I mean, yeah we already sold out house, but with that money we were able to buy a new house, here. We're going to be moving in just a few blocks down, Connor. I'm not going back to Australia anytime soon. I mean, my dad is so he can sell Nanas house, but I'm not. I'm staying here with you" I looked at him in disbelief. I couldn't believe a single thing he just said. He's not going to leave me after all.

"How long have you known?" I asked, realizing they obviously must have known for quiet some time now.

"My mom told me everything a couple of nights after I told you I was moving back to Australia. Instead of telling you, I got my family and your family to play along and act like we were really going back to Aus. Needless to say, my plan worked perfectly. Because here we are."

I didn't know if I should be mad or glad that he did that. He made me go through an emotional roller coaster all for nothing.But in the end, I was thankful. By him pretending to leave, I was able to find out my true feelings for him. I was able to realize how much he meant to me.

"Please don't be mad" he breathed out, noticing my silence.

"Mad? I could never be mad. By you doing this, I was able to figure out how much you really mean to me, Troye. Thank you"

"Well let me prove to you how much you mean to me. How about a date?"

"A date?"

"Yes. A date. You and me. 5 pm sharp. I'll come pick you up."

"It's a date, Troye Sivan."

"so it is, Connor Joel" he smiled, wrapping me up in another hug. "I wouldn't be able to survive without you, Con. You're the light that leads me."

"God, Troye. The past few hours were torture. I actually thought you left. I had doubts that we'd ever see each other again. I couldn't bare it." I unravel myself from him and looked deep into his gorgeous eyes that i've missed so much.

"Connor, you're so beautiful" he smiled, putting his hand on my cheek and wiping away the stray tear. "I couldn't imagine my life without you, Connor." His eyes flickered down to my lips, and as he looked back up at my eyes, I saw his tongue slowly graze his bottom lip.