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Chapter 19

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My Everything – Ariana Grande

After I saw the Mellet car drive down the road, I decided it would be best if I took a little walk to clear my mind. Besides, I wouldn't want anybody seeing me like this.

I've cried enough tears to see my own reflection in them

As the tears streamed down my face, I couldn't help but think about him. Think about how much he has impacted my life and how much I was going to fucking miss him.

And then it was clear. I can't deny, I really miss him

I thought back to everything we've done. Everything from having snowball fights as children to kissing in front of our friends – and I couldn't help but realize how stupid I was for isolating myself from him for seven years.

To think that I was wrong, I guess you don't know what you got til it's gone.

"until next time" his words kept replaying in my head. What if there isn't a next time? What if I always feel this constant pain in my heart?

Pain is just a consequence of love, I'm saying sorry for the sake of us.

I never truly knew how much Troye meant to me until now. I never truly understood how one person could mean the entire world to me. I never knew that everything could turn into nothing at all.

He wasn't my everything til we were nothing and it's taking me a lot to say.

I never knew this feeling could be so strong. I never knew that once he left the country, he'd be taking a piece of me with him. He took a piece of my heart.

Now that he's gone, my heart is missing something. So it's time I push my pride away.

Troye Sivan Mellet is truly the one person I care about

Cause you are – you are- you are my everything.

Troye Sivan Mellet is my best friend.

You are – You are – You are my everything.

He's going to be in an entire different country than me.  Several thousand miles apart.

I know it's not far but I still can't handle the distance.

The pain in my chest is unbearable. I'm missing a piece of my heart,  my life will never be the same with Troye in Australia.

You're traveling with my heart, I hope this is a temporary feeling. Cause it's too much to bear. Without you and I know I ain't the cure.

Troye will always be mine, and I hope I'll always be Troye's. Australia may seem far away, but I know we can work things out – nothing is worth breaking our bond.

If I cross your mind just know I'm yours, cause what we got is worth fighting for. Cause you are...

He's gone. He's really gone.

You weren't my everything until we were nothing. And it's taking me a lot to say.

I'll never be the same again. I'll never be the same Connor without Troye. I'll never have the same heart.

Now that you're gone, my heart is missing something, so it's time I push my pride away.

Troye Sivan Mellet is my undying crush

You are – you are- you are my everything

Troye Sivan Mellet is my sun, moon, and stars

­You are- you are- you are my everything

Troye Sivan Mellet is...

You are – you are- you are

Troye is...

You are- you are- you are

Troye Sivan Mellet is my everything

My everything.

 

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Heyo this was a quick little short chapter xx