—ahmaree
i woke up the next morning and the first person that came to mind was jahseh and what we did last night. i was not finna fall for him. never has and won't start today.
i grabbed my phone and decided to call my best friend bri. i called her and after a few rings she picked up.
"hello?" she answered
"hey bri" i said to her "where you at?" i asked
"i'm at home why?" she asked.
"i need you to come to my house. i gotta tell you something" i told her
"what? is it bad?" she asked me
"to us, it is" i said
"alright i"m omw" she said and hung up
i had to tell somebody about this. it was going to eat me up inside if i didn't
bri showed up and we went to my room.
"okay so what happened that was so bad?" she asked
"bri, you know who lives next to me right?" i asked her
"yeah jah- mariiii what did y'all doooo? i thought we hated jah." she said to me
"yea i know but yesterday my mom and his mom wanted to introduce us but we had already known each other. so after they left i took a nap but was woken up by him banging on my window. he was hanging from it so i got up and opened it for him cuz i didn't want him to fall and break anything. he came and sat on my bed and basically i was telling him how nobody liked him so he got up and started grinding on me. he had made me wet and i asked him to help me fix it." i scrambled out
"DID YOUR VIRGIN ASS LET HIM FUCK YOU?!?" she yelled with her eyes widened.
"nooo. he had just fingered me, but when he was doing it, it wasn't supposed to be anything more but he started kissing me. after that, i just started seeing him differently"
"sooo...he fingered you and kissed you...does he like you?!?" she asked
"i don't even know but i hope not cuz we don't like jahseh...right???" i asked her
"mari, DO YOU LIKE HIM?!?" she yelled at me
"i don't knowww" i said to her
"so he did all of that stuff to you and now you're seeing him differently? you like him." she simply and i just laughed.
"i know what i can do. I'll just tell him to come over and talk to him about it, see how he feels" i told her and she nodded
she ended up leaving and it started to get dark. i didn't even realize i slept most of the day. i guess it was time to talk to jahseh.
i grabbed some little pebbles i had in a vase and went over to the window. i was about to throw one but heard music coming from his room and a voice singing to it. it was him singing. i listened to him sing.
i should've let you know
that you're my only one
i know you're feeling numb
I'll fuck you till you cum
said i don't understand
how you don't a man
you want me in your bed
cuz i've been in your head
his singing was beautiful. i wonder if anyone else knows. i grabbed a pebble and threw it at his window. he looked over and came to the window. he opened it and he still looked as attractive as last night
"are you busy?" i asked him and he just shook his head. "can you come over? i want to talk to you." i told him.
he stared at me for a little bit and walked away. i watched him walk outside and i went downstairs so i could open the door for him. he had on a black hoodie that read "Revenge" in red letters. he hovered over me, looking at me.
idk why but i'm just now realizing how much taller he is than me. we stood at the door for a while. what was i doing?
maybe bri was right cuz i've never felt this way around him before. every other time i hate being around him and is always calling him names but now, i'm at a loss for words and my stomach is doing flips.
i snapped out of it and walked upstairs and i could feel he was close behind me. i sat on the bed and he sat down next to me.
"so i um...i wanted to talk to you about last night." i said and a soft smirk came to his face. "did it mean anything?" i asked
"nah." he said simply and my heart dropped. a part of me wanted him to say yeah.
—jahseh
i was lying like hell. it definitely meant something to me. i liked our time last night, but i said no because we're not supposed to like each other.
she hates my guts and i hate hers. it's been like that forever but after last night, i started seeing her differently and she's been on my mind all day. what the hell is she doing to me?
i stood up and walked downstairs. i let myself out and went back home. i sat near my window for some reason and i heard her humming. i thought it was cute, then i realized what she was humming. she was humming the song i wrote about her this morning. she must have heard me.
i know it might be weird to write a song about her so soon after these feelings showed up but i didn't want to tell anyone cuz they would think i was going soft so i had to make it into a song to find some way of expressing that feeling...
*999 words*
