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Sixteen

The week after was shitty. There was no other word to describe it really. I was feeling shitty and i regretted whatever i have done. I screwed up after the whole time i was trying not to and what was giving me guilt was that i was ignoring Audine. He texted me day and night, called me and even tried to video chat with me but i ignored all his attempts. I couldn't let him see me the way i was. Not when i was completely destroyed and feeling like shit.

I missed him so fucking much

I tried my best not to let mom sense anything because it wasn't her fault that i turned out this way. It was all my mistake, but i wouldn't deny that Lola and Mylo knew something was off. I shrug them off whenever they ask what's wrong with me. The only time i spoke was when they asked me about Broadway. I was shocked how excited i felt whenever i started talking about our amazing day. I told them about every single detail the day after that - after i knocked myself out with alcohol - and they seemed to be as shocked as i was when i mentioned that we kissed

Five freaking amazing times, but who's counting? I'd rather lose counting of how many times we kissed

I was walking down the crowded hallway towards my locker. The school day was over and i was deadly glad that i got through it even with my pounding head - which is the side effect of drinking the previous night - and my tired body. I caught a sight of my two best friends at my locker. A scene that I've seen so many times in my life but whatever i noticed today wasn't something I'm used to

When i reached my locker, i glanced between the two of them suspiciously. I have been a little bit quiet today. More than i should be because i am still feeling bad about myself and become missing Audine feels like shit, but it's my fault. I'm the one who decided to ignore him for a whole week instead of talking to him about what was wrong with me

Didn't it help at first? Wasn't he my only escape from my pain? Why the hell i am ignoring him now?

For the past week he kept on sending me messages to check on me. I read them all. I saw all the cute pictures he sent me, pictures we took together that day. He basically took a thousand pictures of us together. Us at the library, us at the park, us at his school, us while drawing our tattoos and us at the ice-cream shop. He took pictures of me alone and said i was beautiful whenever he texted them to me. He took a picture of us when we were brushing our teeth together that morning and texted me another odd compliment

AUDINE :

PICTURE

AUDINE :

U look cute wearing my clothes

AUDINE :

Hope you're doing okey though

And that was one of the few things he texted me. I knew i was worrying him and it was making me feel bad each and everyday. It's not his fault I'm hurt because he's not the one who caused me this pain.

" My parents are out of town again and you guys know the rest. No explanation needed" Mylo said and i smiled despite the grey feeling i had inside of me. Whatever we're going to do this evening, I'm sure it's going to make me feel a little bit better

" Is Maggie going to be there?" i asked Mylo about his seven year old sister. A year younger than my sister but they get along very well. You can imagine their love for sparkles and barbie dolls and other thing related to princesses

" Yes.. Bring Leanne with you. I don't want to hear that little toddler whining about it until next year"  he said and i nodded. It was a good idea to take my sister with me for a little fun time with someone who she liked so much. I knew they were going to have fun playing with the endless dolls and stuffed animals Maggie owns