Perfectly broken

Part 19

Welcome back for a longer chapter and some long awaited Hyunlix.

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Felix POV

The day had come. Felix couldn't quite believe it. The loud atmosphere of thousands of people were so close and in only a couple of minutes they would finally step out in front of their fans again- it had been too long.

Chan had been satisfied with how Felix had taken care of himself the last couple of days and had finally accepted that he joined them. Felix had been so nervous and eager to look his best for STAY that he had tried skipping both meals that day, but in spite of that, he had been good.

"So..." Chan began, his arms around Changbin and Hyunjin as he looked at all his members. "I know we have been through a lot over the last couple of months, but tonight we're going to celebrate what we have achieved. We are going to have fun and give STAY an amazing night. Understood?"

He shot Hyunjin and Felix a second look before accepting the all of their nodding. Jisung and Changbin was literally buzzing with energy and even though both Seungmin and Jeongin looked nervous, they also smiled widely.

Chan let go of the others and neared Felix. "Let me check once more" he asked, indicating to get the other to lift his arms over his head for the nth time since he got into the outfit of the night.

Chan had personally made sure that it would cover as much of the young dancer's body as possible to hide both his skinny frame and the scars that lithered his skin. Felix had firstly been bothered since he had spent so much energy making the body he had now, but Chan hadn't accepted a debate, so Felix had let it go.

"I have to accidently dance into a forest of scissors or an actual hurricane before these clothes show anything" Felix pointed out, lifting his arms and spinning around to prove his point.

Chan smiled and padded his head. "I just have to be sure. We don't want to worry STAY and they would become worried if they saw."
Felix couldn't help but to feel slightly guilty at that, but he just nodded. "I promise I'm good."
"And if you're not" Chan pressed, looking at him dead serious.

"I'll tell you" Felix agreed and smiled slightly to the leader who looked pleased with the answer.

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Felix had forgotten the rush from stepping onto stage. It was overwhelming, no matter how many times he had done it before. He couldn't help but to smile as the fans screamed and the bright light blinded him. The music began, and so did their performance. Felix wasn't just enjoying being able to perform in front of STAY again, but also the fact that Hyunjin couldn't ignore him or be mad at him in front of their fans. Felix did his best to respect him, but when the choreography forced him to be close he couldn't help but to accidently grace him or look at him. Sometimes it even felt like Hyunjin's was doing the same, but he could just have imagined it. He could have imagined how the older dancer's fingers softly stroked his back when they passed or the way his eyes followed him when they danced. He could have imagined it, because he wished it was true.

Everything was great, until the last song. Felix was beyond exhausted. He had felt it coming already after the second song, but he had been sure he could get through it. He wasn't so sure anymore though. His vision had become blurry and his fingers felt cold. His legs shook under him and he fought to not let them buckle under him.

Jisung was speaking to the crowds and everyone was looking at him, or so he hoped at least, because he had a hard time pretending. He knew this feeling all too well. This was how he had felt all the numerous times before he fainted at practise, at the studio or at the dorm. But he had taken better care of himself lately, so why did he feel like this now?