Zimpande Zamathonga (unedited)

Chapter 25

Thingolwenkosazana
After moving to Pretoria for school I had to 'ghost' almost everyone , I haven't seen Sipho in a long time, Zizipho..I'm not sure where she's studying or where she's currently staying , Khoza family tried to reach out to me but I couldn't face reality, Khetha was so broken you could tell from his last message he sent me, apologizing for things that were not even his fault. Trust me it wasn't easy, at first I was convinced I couldn't do it but as time went by I learnt to just keep distance and focus on myself and my gift. When I got a text from Qaphelani asking me to join the family for dinner I thought this was my chance to face this family and apologize for what I did to them and for leaving without an explanation, From Qaphelani's place Khetha drove to the beach and I'm not going to lie I'm a little nervous

"let's talk" Khetha says sitting comfortably

I take a deep breath and I turn my head a bit to look at him

"I'm sorry" Me

"make me understand why you left" he says in a low tone starring at me

"I wanted some space" Me

"that's selfish, you know that?, you could have just said you want space and I was going to give it to you" Khetha

"I understand that but look at it like this if I stayed, your family was going to be on my case about this whole thing, I needed to focus on myself alone, meet new souls and focus on the gift I have" Me

"did you bother yourself to find out why we have to get married, I doubt you did because all you think about is yourself, you only think about putting yourself first and leaving us behind hurting, I don't appreciate what you did honestly " Khetha

"Listen Khetha..I went through alot hey, I wasn't cruising in these 2 years, I did everything in my power to find out, I didn't eat for days, trying to find answers waking up at 03:00 asking my ancestors for answers ,going to the river ngiyophahla! I was doing all of that alone! Have you asked yourself why you guys are not sacrificing maidens anymore? Because of me! I had to go to Mpumalanga to find where Nomkhitha was last seen, where were you? everything is going so well on your side and you guys are not even thinking about why certain things don't happen anymore, aunt Grace almost died that was a sign! You guys didn't even do a ceremony to thank your ancestors for this, you guys don't have problems where do you think they went? " Thingo

"you could have reached out to us and told us how were we supposed to know?! If you just leave and not say anything" Khetha says in the most calm tone but you can feel his anger as well

"Khetha! Why don't you think! Why don't you think to atleast thank your ancestors for keeping you alive and your family, for having a job, a car, a place, we wouldn't be here if you guys did the right thing, what is Ntando doing? no it's nice to live a happy life without knowing that other people fought for it" Me

"usuyangithethisa Thingo ngigcine sikhuluma njengabantu abadala" (you're shouting at me, last time I checked we were having a conversation as adult) Khetha

"I'm sorry but Khetha-"

"I understand now, I was confused" Khetha

"things are not going go back to normal just like that, I'm sorry I took your father's life. I wasn't supposed to leave the way I did but I had to, it wasn't my intention to hurt you , I'll speak to my dad and we can see how things go from now onwards, I'll probably be the worst wife " I say laughing and looking out the window, the sea is calm, the moon is out, it's a beautiful scenery

he  squeezes my hand, then we both let out a light sigh

"come outside" Khetha opens his door and I do the same we meet in front of the car,he pulls me by my waist, I wrap my arms around his neck and hugs me tight. This is what they both needed, I
quickly wipe tears on my cheecks.

This is definitely alot to take in,we go back to the car and Khetha drives off.