Once vickys tears had slowed, tommy kissed her forehead and helped her stand up from the floor and sat her down on the toilet seat
"Do you want me run you a bath?" He asked calmly
"Yes please" vicky agrees so quiet that Tommy only just about hears her. As he is running the bath, vicky sits picking at her finger nails and staring at the wall infront of her, refusing to make eye contact with Tommy. He sighs watching his daughter suffer and so crouches infront of her and gently moves her chin to look at him
"Vicky, Princess, why didn't you tell me?" She doesn't reply and just allows her eyes to fill up with stinging tears
"You know im not mad don't ya darling. Whatever it is that's made you feel this way, we can fix it, I will make things right I promise you vicky. Im not gonna let you suffer alone, we're in this together" Tommy planted a sweet kiss on her forehead and then left giving her a pitiful look before hand.
With wobbly legs and shaking hands, vicky stood up infront of the bathroom. She unbuttoned her blouse and shrugged it off onto the floor. Her skirt was pulled down and then her undergarments followed. Tight chested and lip quivering, vicky slowly climbed into the tub, sitting down into the heated water with her eyes closed, taking deep breathes in order to not have a panick attack or seizure. Once her arms were under, it stung and the pain spread rapidly. She kissed and clenched her teeth at the feeling but the pain was gone rather quickly and she was left to drown in her own self pity and depression
Bouncer sat next to the tub whining I'm down her ear, only making the tears pour faster.
"Shut up! Do you think I wanted this? Do you think I want to feel this way? Just get out" she ordered reaching over and opening the door slightly. When bouncer didn't move, she yelled
"GET OUT" The moment the dog left, she began to sob. Vicky loved bouncer with all her heart, she loved Tommy to the moon and back, yet this feeling of self hatred was making her despise the thought of them. For some reason, she was angry but couldn't figure out why
"What do you want from me?" Vicky cries to the sky
"This is your fault! You left me, and now I spend all my time crying and wishing I was dead. I'm so angry at you for dying, how could you leave me mummy? I need you please come back to me please. Tell me everythings going to be OK" she sobbed and yelled at nothing. Why did her mother have to leave her? She left too soon. Never got to see vicky grow up and now, vicky wasn't sure if she even wanted to grow up. After wetting her face to get rid of the tear stains, vicky climbed out of the bath. For a brief second, she thought she was going to collapse but managed to catch herself against the sink
One look in the mirror was enough to make her scream and cry. Why did it have to be like this? Why couldn't she just be happy. Wiping her eyes and getting dressed into some pyjamas, vicky went downstairs for a cuddle for that was all she needed. With soaking wet hair that had been tied up and red eyes, she didn't expect to see both Tommy and polly sat waiting for her
Without saying a word, vicky went over to Tommy who had his arms open for the weeping girl. She climbed onto his lap and curled up in a ball, resting her tired head against his shoulder
"Vicky, you know we have to talk about this don't you?" Polly asked quietly, not wanting to scare the girl anymore
"We just want to know how long it's been going on for" she continued. The only reply they got was vicky clinging onto Tommy even tighter as is he was her last life line. Polly looked at Tommy and wiped away her tears. He also looked ready to cry
"We can help you love. Do you know why you did it?" Tommy asked but again, no answer
"You don't want to talk, that's alright. Is it alright if I check your arms honey? I just need to make sure there are no infections" when vicky didn't move, Tommy sat her up straighter and moved her head to look him in the eyes
"Please baby, we don't want you getting ill" Tommy begged and reluctantly, vicky agreed. She rolled her sleeve up to show aunt pol and leant against Tommy's shoulder as his arm wrapped around her waist. When polly saw her arms, she tried her hardest not to gasp but it was nearly impossible. Covered in scars of every size and depth. Polly held vickys arm and moved it around abit just checking for infection. When she accidently touched a fresh cut, vicky whinced and pulled her arm back
"Sorry love. Good news is there don't appear to be any infections" polly smiled at her but unfortunately, no joy was in her eyes. You can fake a smile but the eyes always show a person's true feelings
"Why didn't you tell us Vic? We just want to help" Tommy asked with tears running down his face which he desperately wiped away
"Can I go to bed now?" Vicky asked making eye contact with polly for the first time
"Of course darling. Sleep well" polly said kissing her cheek
"If you need anything at any time, my doors always open. I won't be angry and ill do my best to help. Go on then, bouncers missing you" Tommy told her. Vickg mumbled a soft thank you before going upstairs and to her bed which she so desperately needed
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Shelby Fire- Completed
FanfictionBefore the war, there was a girl. Her customers knew her as Sapphire, her family knew her as Dotty. After falling pregnant with Thomas Shelby's baby, she runs. No one knows where and Tommy was left believing she had simply grown tired of small heath...
