Emotional Trauma Sucks

Everybody Hates Me

(Intro)
Have you ever felt like everybody hates you and not shit anybody says is true?
Did you ever think to stop and ask yourself if these thoughts are truth or just anxiety with lack of proof?
I guess it doesn't really matter with the way it makes you feel so poetry is how I deal
Let me see if I can help you learn to heal since my words aren't hollow when I claim to know how you feel

(Verse 1)
Some days it feels like everybody hates me and I can't tell if it's just anxiety
So I retreat within my own head thinking it might be easier to just drop dead
Many people regret the words they never said but what if your words find someone dead
What I mean to say is that it's your words caused someone's final day
How is that supposed to make you feel and how can you possibly heal?
Best not to go down that road so just pucker up and kiss that toad
Metaphorically I mean that you simply shouldn't be cruel my friendly bean
Is that a thing people say these days? I never really understood people anyways
And we all have our ups and downs; smiles and frowns
But some days are harder than others when we feel like nobody bothers
Nobody even pretends to care and why would they even dare?
When your brainxiety says that you're hated by all of society or at least the majority
But is that really the thoughts of my anxiety or is it true?

(Hook)
Everybody hates me
Or is that just anxiety?
Everybody hates me
Am I crazy?
Everybody hates me
Everybody hates me
Why do I feel this way?
Everybody hates me
Am I fucking crazy?
Probably...
Maybe that's why....
Everybody hates me?

(Verse 2)
Everybody hates me or is that just my anxiety?
Guess it doesn't really matter to me perpetually
Since deep down a small part of me hates me so I'm fighting sobriety
Some days it feels like I get into arguments simply for existing even when not resisting
So why do I continue speaking when obviously not one single person is listening?
So why do I continue speaking when they don't seem to understand me; not one single inkling
Hell I don't even understand my damn self half the time and I don't even know what I write in half a rhyme
Half these rhymes? Man whatever, I can't keep up with these times
People just confuse me and the more I try to understand the less I do honestly
So I tend to be a loner more consistently since nobody seems to understand me
And if I were to continue speaking my honesty then I guess I would say that I feel like this frequently though not constantly.

(Hook)
Everybody hates me
Or is that just anxiety?
Everybody hates me
Am I crazy?
Everybody hates me
Everybody hates me
Why do I feel this way?
Everybody hates me
Am I fucking crazy?
Probably...
Maybe that's why....
Everybody hates me?

(Verse 3)
When I was younger back in school never really thought of myself as all that cool
Often got bullied for my weight and I just had to get home; couldn't wait
Food gave me comfort from their harsh words and I liked to build an emotional fort
I've been bullied for my opinion bruh and ignored when I had borderline anorexia
Cried so much and wanted to die to the simplistic human touch
Can't remember how to be sad and try my best not to get mad
Been called retarded and seen my sanity grow to be stalled; dearly departed
Broke my toe trying to chase down some bullies one time so here's a story within a rhyme

(Outro)
It's a lot to think about and I hope I've left you no reason to doubt
But I've got trust issues and if I asked you to take a walk in my shoes....
Could you handle that? On the daily called fat?
Not allowed to be different and forever socially insignificant?
Would you want this life? This pain and strife?
When you so much as hear a story and you start to worry.
And you have such bad anxiety it often makes you queasy and shakey
Life ain't easy but it's not for you either is it? Now speak honestly when you talk to me.
Because I got this thing called an empathetic curse that lets me see right through fake scars
It lets me see your true emotion when you try and hide it behind happy devotion
What I'm trying to say is I know everyone goes through a lot and I'm not special but I've still gotta take my shot