(Intro)
You ever get the feeling you got a toxic mindset just like your parents always said?
Ever think the world would be better off if you were dead regardless of what was said.
Then you have a toxic mindset and I'm here trying my best to repent
You don't have alone so please my friend pick up that phone
Put those earbuds and just vibe out and listen
(Verse 1)
I've said it many times in oh so many rhymes
That poetry is my only means to survive bullshittery
Hope I can make it flow and I hope you don't feel the need to go
But if you can't handle my lyrics then you should back up off my spirits
Trying my best to always be honest but I feel like I lost the conquest in this contest
Am I truly a god or am I just a secret guest made from the sod?
They say mentality becomes reality so I guess that's why I lived in constant misery perpetually
These rhymes just kinda flow outta me; bitch go crazy and just maybe you'll see
I got countless reasons to doubt society and it's not just this fucking anxiety
I been done wrong in more than just a song so I don't talk about hitting that bong
Shit ain't no lie; getting high sometimes the only way to get by
I gotta do a heavy sigh because I don't even know how to get by
Guess you could say I got a toxic mindset always living in constant regret
Trying to get better; I'm trying to be healthier
I'm all right here; though I might cry a mental tear
But after we all been through who could really blame you?
For having a toxic mindset and always life in regret
But I guess it's time for the hook, the part of the song to get them shook
(Hook)
Toxic mindset
Living in regret
How I used to be
They don't wanna see
Toxic mindset accomplished so casually
Mental toxicity; Gotta get this shit outta me
We gotta get better if we wanna live to be a survivor
But how? How do we get better when we been stuck here forever?
Toxic mindset
Living in regret
How I used to be
They don't wanna see
Toxic mindset accomplished so casually
Mental toxicity; Gotta get this shit outta me
We gotta get better if we wanna live to be a survivor
But how? How do we get better when we been stuck here forever?
(Verse 2)
Sometimes I feel like I get possessed trying to write all these rhymes to leave you impressed
But that's not my only quest and I'm seeking world peace as my eternal conquest
Seeking to destroy this toxic mindset and never again feel a single regret
All I wanna feel is happiness like I'm fucking sick and tired of perpetual numbness
Wonder if anyone will even understand this or am I on my own forever just like orphan kids
But I'm not trying to diss or make you pissed I'm just using metaphor to show I feel so poor
Mentally and internally is where I grow magically like I'm finally learning to be happy
Despite all the shit that affects me and causes seemingly endless boundless perpetual misery
Like why do I even try when some nights all I wanna do is cry?
And why do I even try when it seems like you can't get by without telling a lie
But on those nights when I wanna end it all and refuse to answer a single phone call
That's when I sit down and write a song hoping it won't take me too long
Because we can all relate on one thing no matter how much hate you may sing
We all have dealt with a toxic mindset that's my belief so please don't regret when you leave
Because it's so crazy I really can't believe it baby
But we all got one and shit ain't fun
(Hook)
Toxic mindset
Living in regret
How I used to be
They don't wanna see
Toxic mindset accomplished so casually
Mental toxicity; Gotta get this shit outta me
We gotta get better if we wanna live to be a survivor
But how? How do we get better when we been stuck here forever?
Toxic mindset
Living in regret
How I used to be
They don't wanna see
Toxic mindset accomplished so casually
Mental toxicity; Gotta get this shit outta me
We gotta get better if we wanna live to be a survivor
But how? How do we get better when we been stuck here forever?
(Verse 3)
I guess I'm just trying to say I been picked down and torn apart right from the start
Only ever let a few people in my heart and then they just fucking broke it apart
Back in 2013 I took a punch to the spleen only mentally if ya know what I mean
Found my one true love; my baby dove
And she left me broken in misery
Tried to die so many times and sadness welled up within so many rhymes
But I will always survive and I guess eventually I will thrive
Life been getting better but I doubt I'll ever recover
Not entirely and not permanently so don't bother thinking too deep on my misery
Learn a lesson from me and just try your best to be happy at least happier than the rest
Of your days; in your own ways
Until maybe one day you can wake up and realize that happiness truly is a surprise
It'll happen faster than you realize and have you hating that past self you despise
Like we can be happy perpetually it's all about that happiness mentality
So yea this song might cause some misery but it also might cause some happy
So even if it sounds sappy and they treat me crappy or shitty
I'll do my best to remain happy despite whatever the world may throw at me
And I just encourage you to do the same so that for our pain and sadness no one is to blame
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Emotional Trauma Sucks
PoetryAn album about the emotional traumas we face throughout our lives and the ways that trauma can potentially affect us and maybe if we're lucky how to get past these awful events in our lives
