Thy Will, Not Mine

Chapter {16} Destiny

"Heavenly Lord, please create a clean heart in me, renew my thoughts so they can be pure, keep in your strong tower where no evil can reach. Please help me to be the light of this world as Matthew five verses fourteen to sixteen says and please help me to love my enemies and pray for them as you have commanded us to do. Thank you, father. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen."

That afternoon I just felt the spirit tell me to pray after speaking to me through Matthew 5:13-16 and in a miraculous way I felt better and ready for all the things the world wanted to throw at me because truth being told when I read Samantha's article I was deeply hurt and wanted to lash out but something just seemed to hold me back and told me to calm down and that something was the Holy Spirit. Now all I could ask was patience and love from the Almighty God.

Today Thato and I were going shopping for some essentials and clothes, something we had agreed upon over a week ago.

I dressed up in a big warm grey coat, black joggers and a pair of white Nike Airs gifted to me by my one and only best friend during our eighth friendship anniversary.

My crossbody bag was around my body when I jogged out of my room because as usual I was late and Thato always kept to time so she would surely bite my head off. In no time I was in the living room where to my surprise my best friend was spiralled on our plush white rug with five books widely opened and a pen in her mouth as she hastily typed something into her laptop whilst simultaneously writing something on an exam pad paper. Her natural hair twists were tied probably to avoid any disturbances as she looked pretty busy.

"Hey, bestie," I said taking a seat on our couch as I watched her continue writing, in her own world.

"Thato?" I called out once more, having not heard me, a mere second later her soft brown eyes watched the room for the person who was calling her before they finally landed on me and she smiled before going back to her work. It must've been really important because she would be chatting me away by now not smiling.

I stuck my head into her laptop, "What are you busy with?"

"A gastronomy research," she replied her forehead forming lines of concentration, she had been busy with it since morning.

"Oh, okay?" For the life of me, I did not know what gastronomy was but I agreed nonetheless.

I walked across the room, my shoes lightly brushing on the hardwood flooring as I made my way to each and every window, pulling on the beige double panel curtains along with their sheers shut as darkness swallowed the room whole before I switched on the bright white lights.

"Are we still going shopping today?" I asked as I toke back my former seat.

Her eyes widened before she slapped her palm against her face, running it down her face. I guessed that she must've forgotten all about the shopping due to her reaction but who could blame her? One could easily see that she was under immense pressure that even her forehead had creases.

"Eish! That completely slipped my mind," she shook her head, her eyes showing her sincerest apologies for forgetting.

"I guessed as much," I chuckled, trying to lighten up the mood as I did not need her to beat herself up over something so miniture but she didn't look at it as I did as she quickly put bookmarks on her textbooks before closing them and switching off her laptop.

"Please wait for me I'm going to freshen up a bit then we can go shopping okay?" By now she had stood up and was halfway through our stairs.

"No, don't, just sit back and take a breather, you seem stressed," I walked up to her, toke her by her hand and pulled her up into her Scandinavian-themed bedroom inspired by her love for fruits and vegetables which come in all shapes and sizes, you could never get bored with all the unique shapes all round the room paired with the bold and vibrant yellow colour scheme.